So stressed out and so upset. all I wanted in my life is to have a baby who can be my family and my best friend.. for somereason I can not get pregnant!! I am married and have step son who I very much love but he already has a mother, a mother and a whole big family so all I am to him is the step mother.. for years now I tried to figure out whats wrong but could not.. I can't talk to my husband about this cause he gets tired of me crying over this so i decided just to keep it to my self and cry my self to sleep some times or just cry in the shower.. every one around me is getting pregnant and womens who are not meant to be mothers they are having kids and I cant!!! I love kids more than anything, I have so much love to give but god did not me this gift..
I will be 28 years old next month, we have been having unprotected sex for a long time now. I just gave up this month. I am so sad so hurt and in so much pain but manage to keep the smile on my face until I be by my self... can't see a doctor cause I dont have a medical insurance.. I wish if I can adopt a child but my husband said NO.
I just wanna know when this pain will go away? when will I get over this? when will I give up for ever??? I have bleeding ulcers in my stomach and it start acting up cause I'm so depressed over this..
dont know what to do... why why why???? lost and hurt no one can understand how I feel..
I dont feel the same anymore, I feel sad, lonley most of the time. the worse thing is I can not talk to my husband about it cause I really dont think it is bothering him and he does not even think about it..