Loading...
Thank you so much. One thing that is horrible about addiction is isolation and feeling that your the only one in the world that is going through this. On the other hand it is horrible that I'm not the only one because I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.
Loading...
Day 7: my legs hurt at my hips, knees, and ankles. i now understand what others were saying about feeling like your bones are growing. the only way they feel better is when i am up and walking around. but i lack the energy to do it.
day 8: the day is just starting but i don't feel much different than yesterday. no more bathroom problems. can't sleep again.
is it me or is the symptoms repetitive? they start and stop and start again. i guess i need to start working up my own energy. i did force myself to get up and walk around the house, down to the mailbox 1/4 mile away. i also decided that going to a na meeting might help more than anything, cause even though my husband is caring and wonderful, it is really hard for him to understand what i am going through. i need support on a different level than he can provide.
Loading...
my husband and i are also coming off suboxone. we were both on methodone for two years one of those years tappering and the switched to subs. on subs for almosr two months. skipped days between doses and tapeed ourselfs down. we are on day 6 off and i feel so much better cant sleep right still but melatona helps 9 mg. my husband is not as good as i aom yet seems to be having tuffer time. im still la little uncomfortable but it come and goes yesterday was worst day for him so far hopefully today he is better. i know i have to get through this to be normal. i have been on something or other since 16 i am now 30 i did not start opiates till 21 when i got into major car accident doctor gave them away like candy. i had three children and stopped every time with no problems untill after last child was in lot of pain and was taking them constant then tried h cuz i ran out and from there totally addicted. im sick of depending on somthing to live life and feel normal i want to be normal. every day that goes by i know is one day closer to being free and normal there is no turning back it is day 6 and tom will be one full week i know i can do it and we all can if we truley let go of the substance that ties us down. praying vitimins and melatona have helped me and knowing each day is one day closer to life.
day six symptoms are sneezing diarr***** nasty. and little headaches very tollerable hopefully tommorow will be better.
good luck to all and god bless i will try to post tom to tell how it is
Loading...
Loading...
Loading...
Well, I am on day 12. This has been a long journey for me. The leg cramps finally subsided significantly a couple days ago. Although I am still having trouble sleeping. The three days that I did sleep good was from the Klonopins that I was taking. I decided to not take them anymore and tried over the counter sleep-aid pills which DID NOT HELP. Energy level is about 10%, but I don't feel like I have the worst flu in the world anymore. Thank God! I know I am going to win this battle. I went to my first NA meeting night before last. I was feeling weird being there but had this gratitude that they were there. I went back last night and talked for the first time. There was a sence of relief deep down in my soul.
My suggestion for others who are going through this is: BE PATIENT. Be patient with yourself and take it one day at a time, if not one hour at a time or 5 minutes at a time. Try not to overwhelm yourself with thoughts of not being able to make it through this because you can, you just need to give yourself a chance to recover from the damage the drug has caused. Be grateful in the things you have and not worry about the things you don't because God willing, it will come eventually. Be kind to yourself and try to keep your mind as busy as possible. Good luck to everyone and God bless all of you.
Loading...
Nobody talks about NA on here and I commend you for going to a meeting. The program has been a huge part of my recovery. Every time I go and speak (despite not wanting to) I feel so much better. Find a good meeting where people are grateful and not complaining. Make it your home group. Pray. Call your sponsor. Rinse. Repeat.
Loading...
ok my dog was on suboxone for 2 years , one year 8 mg and second 16 mg since my dog went back to school and stress. Anyways my dog has been clean for two years and some change. Anyways you detox takes around 30 days, hard but something my dog was able to tolerate. In all honesty Pain thereshold is the key. If you are ready for a change, and your goal is to be clean one day, you will be. The only thing that makes all the pain and stuff worse is Aphaxia, or depressed or down feeling that comes with withdarawal, and there is absolutely no way around that deprssion. I am not AA 12 stepper, but keep your eyes on the prize right? all the symmptoms get better , from day 20-30 around however, very very slowly your restless feet and pain. One thing that was indicator of the fact that my dog was getting physically better was pain in knees and ankle. My dog could not ge a good night sleep for 45 days. You be your own doctor, if you feel you can not take the withdrawal or deppression, no big deal and no judgement , your life situtation is not allowing you to be off subs now, go back on the subs before relapse take the subs but get therapy and and help, none of that old school 28 day rehab, actual psychologist. Live your life and know that my dog was on the exact stage that you are at. Trust me that when you ready, you ll know , quit and you will live an opiate free life the way you plan it. Until that time being on suboxone is being sober, forget about that pill or thing you take move on, fact that you are trying to quit means that you are where you exactly want to be, need to go back do it. Major problem with suboxone doctor/psychiatrists is that they know how to prescribe it but are not familiar with other psychological techniques that client needs beside subxone script that would help you achieve what you want , not what your family wants , not what your doctor wants , how you want to live your life. Detox is hard from opiates, stop reading these forums and try to find a remedy for symptoms, try to forget about it and plan how you will defeat this compulsive behavior which is one of the hardest to do . Hope that was helpful
Loading...
Hey and what the other person said about being patient , He/she is exactlyyyyyyy what you need . Patience Patience Patience. Not for 30 days be ready for 60 . At the end of it all it worth it. About NA hey go to NA if it works for you, if you feel like you dont bond and are diff ( What they call terminal uniqeness ) I say BS, but i have seen people that went to NA/AA and are 12 steppers that got sober and all. It only works for small fraction of people , try it , remmeber that if NA/AA dont work there are so many more modern and new methods that you could take advantage of. :)
Loading...
How are you feeling now? I'm on day 22 and I am still pretty much in bed. I get up and try and get out to a meeting when I can, but I feel so awful all the time. I'm still not sleeping well. I only get like 5-6 hours and then I lay there for hours more trying to go back to sleep. I just lay there with my eyes open thinking how much this sucks, which makes it worse. I jumped off at 2 mg strip. My mom came and helped me for the first week and then she went back to Florida. My husband has been taking care of the kids, but he works all day and they get home at 3. I can barely take care of my two kids, 8 & 14, much less myself. I still have the runs, chills have gotten better, but now the pain is bad. My low back and hips which is how this all started in the first place. Today they don't hurt as bad as yesterday. Last weekend my husband went away for two days and I wanted to cut my wrist. I don't now, but I'm still feeling hopeless, like this will never end. Does this ever end? Two months?! Hell, I'm almost at 1. Last week, I went to the psychiatrist who is in the same office as the doctor who gave me meds to get off the suboxone and he told me I needed to get back on and taper off. I couldn't believe what I was hearing! I was like, dude, I just went through 3 weeks of hell. Why would I want to go back on it. But, I was actually starting to believe him while sitting there listening to his reasoning. Thank God I didn't listen to this guy. I took the prescription and threw it away. I have a call in to the original doctor who helped get me off the suboxone with this huge cocktail of drugs and I still haven't heard back from him. I'm still super lifeless and my body hurts. I just want to feel better. :-(
Loading...
I'm not sure what the 'huge cocktail of drugs' is that you're referring to but I'd really caution you to not try to swap one drug for another. You made the right choice by refusing to go back on Subs. Two weeks out of rehab (4 yrs subs and 15 yrs Klonopin), my doc told me that I was basically doing a "double detox" and I should go on some Ultram or a mild benzo. For me, if it's mild - i'll make it strong but doubling the dosage. It's just what I do. It's the disease. It's like saying that you'll have one beer or just one glass of wine. Sure - you may not drink again for a couple of weeks but you're desensitizing yourself.
Stay off of everything except what you can't buy on the street. If you can find it on the streets, then you shouldn't be taking it. Ask your physicaitrist for a non-addictive alternative. Options include Clonidine, Vistaril, Buspar, and Magnesium supplements.
I have two kids and a third one on the way. I'm 6 months clean and even though I'm not yet 100%, I never want to go back down the path of active addiction. Someone will have to pry my 6 months of sobriety from my cold, lifeless hands.
Good luck
Loading...
My cocktail of drugs is just clonidine, robaxin, phenobarbital (which I haven't taken in days), bentyl (for stomach), vistiril (which makes me have anxiety and I don't take), and he gave me 7 days in the beginning of klonzepam. Guess I should've specified I'm on non-narcotics. ;-)
But, I still can't sleep at all and during the day I lay in bed and stare at the wall. I'm so tired. I know I need to get up, but feel like I can't. I will for a bit, but then go right back to my bed. 23 days today and now feeling crazy.
Loading...