I admittedly will tell you have suffered my entire life with weight struggles. After being anorexic and bulimic most of my life, I still haven't quite "kicked" the addiction to fluctuating weight. Today is a tough day. I'm on the verge of turning back to my old habits, but found myself here writing about it with the hopes that I will get through today.
Two or three pounds to an anorexic is like putting on 20 lbs. I'm not longer anorexic or bulimic, but weight controls each and every day.... whether I'm in a good mood or a solemn mood. Today it's solemn.... I gained a couple pounds and I'm horrified. I'm holding it together just to get through today knowing tomorrow is a new day; and most likely those few pounds will drop away.
I come SO close to going to the store to buy laxatives. That was my addiction with bulimia. Sixty laxatives a day landed me in the hospital. It all began after watching a commercial on tv about a woman that was obese and conquered it by using and abusing laxatives. I found myself that very day running to the store to purchase ex-lax. The next three years of my life was built about loosing weight; loosing my health and almost my life.
I will get through today!
Two or three pounds to an anorexic is like putting on 20 lbs. I'm not longer anorexic or bulimic, but weight controls each and every day.... whether I'm in a good mood or a solemn mood. Today it's solemn.... I gained a couple pounds and I'm horrified. I'm holding it together just to get through today knowing tomorrow is a new day; and most likely those few pounds will drop away.
I come SO close to going to the store to buy laxatives. That was my addiction with bulimia. Sixty laxatives a day landed me in the hospital. It all began after watching a commercial on tv about a woman that was obese and conquered it by using and abusing laxatives. I found myself that very day running to the store to purchase ex-lax. The next three years of my life was built about loosing weight; loosing my health and almost my life.
I will get through today!