hi there! i'm a 16 year old female.
i'm 160cm (5''4) and 54kg (around 120lbs) :'(
my final goal weight is 45kg (100lbs) it will really be a dream come true when i reach that.
i obsess with losing weight, i remember trying for years to do so, but i've never succeed. my weight makes my self-esteem extremely low, leading to depression, and i feel fat constantly. i really want this so badly.
i have tried to purge several times when i was really low, but i couldn't get much up even tough i tried and tried. i have tried starving some times too, but i end up binging the next day. i have no idea why, but i have had "constipation" ever since i can remember, which causes my stomach to bloat. i have recently purchased some laxatives (on the internet) that i will try out and hope they'll help get rid of the constant constipation.
i only eat healthy foods, and i drink tonssss of water everyday. i usually skip breakfast and lunch since my parents cannot spy on my food intake there, but i have to eat dinner with my family and thats where the problem occurs. they treat me and my siblings like pigs that they have to feed, and constantly buys cake and ice cream. i tend to overeat (sometimes even binge, everybody eats a lot) when i eat dinner, and i feel so bad afterwards.
i want to make myself a rule, where i can't eat anything after 4pm, so i won't sit with all the energy right before sleeping not being able to burn it off, and also avoid dinner. how can i possibly do this? how can i describe/formulate it so my mom doesn't misunderstand my intentions?
whenever i try to lose weight, my mom will accuse me of being anorexic (which, according to my bmi, i am definitely not even close to). my mom knows everything about that stuff apparently.
i don't exercise a lot, i'd rather eat less, i only do it around 30 minutes twice a week (running, rope shipping) and then riding my bicycle to school everyday (10 min).
i drink water, diet coke (is that bad?) and green tea. i take vitamins and i chew sugar free gum and ice cubes. i feel thin and light throughou the day, but then dinner comes around and i have a hard time controlling myself. please help! also eventually tips or excuses for not eating a lot or not eating at all at dinner is very appreciated! thank you so much
Hello Louise,
Sounds like your being a little hard on yourself. You weight isn't bad for 5"4 perhaps 110 pounds would be better. I suggest a low carb diet where you can drink health shakes to regulate your eating habits. It seems like you need to have a sit down with your parents and discuss your dietary needs. The whole family needs to get involved. It sounds like the food in your house is not good at all. You really need to try and talk with you parents, I just don't know what good it will do. It doesn't seem like they know anything about nutrition and don't care. You might try getting them interested on nutrition programs on television. Let them see what happens when you don't eat properly. And, of course you need to work on being consistent with when and what you eat. Skipping breakfast is the worst thing you can do. Good Luck!