I am to have an abortion next week. I want a baby desperately, but my boyfriend of 3 years doesn't even try to see it my way. He says we are not ready financially. He has a good job, and I'm going to graduate from Med school next year. Still, he says we don't have enough money. We are not from USA - we live in Russia, and he says this is no place for a baby. He pressures me into an abortion, and I do not have ANY family, not even a mom... so I have no one to turn to.
What is even worse, I got pregnant on purpose. I stopped the pill and got pregnant right away. So I see I did him wrong knowing he wasn't ready for a baby, and this I how I'm being punished for what I did. But I just can't stop thinking about the baby and how beautiful it would be... And I wold make a great mom.
I know I will have to go through with the abortion, unless boyfriend changes his mind. I can't have a baby on my own, because i have no job, no place to live, no family. So to all of you young girls there please, please make sure you are becoming independent women. I only I had a tiny apartment and a small income, I would be able to stand up for myself and have my baby....
What is even worse, I got pregnant on purpose. I stopped the pill and got pregnant right away. So I see I did him wrong knowing he wasn't ready for a baby, and this I how I'm being punished for what I did. But I just can't stop thinking about the baby and how beautiful it would be... And I wold make a great mom.
I know I will have to go through with the abortion, unless boyfriend changes his mind. I can't have a baby on my own, because i have no job, no place to live, no family. So to all of you young girls there please, please make sure you are becoming independent women. I only I had a tiny apartment and a small income, I would be able to stand up for myself and have my baby....
I am reading through all of these posts, trying to see through my tears. It's been a week and I am feeling like I made the wrong decision. I work in a preschool with toddlers and 2-7 year olds. It is so hard to be around kids all the time, knowing that I killed my own. Plus everyone at work still thinks I'm pregnant. I feel like a fraud and a monster. I know I can't take it back, I just wish all these feelings would pass. I wish I could feel confident that I made the right choice. I was 14 weeks along. I hate myself, and sometimes I just want to die. I wish I could go back in time, and read all these posts before going to the clinic. I was so on the fence about it I know it would have been enough to keep me from going through with it.
PS - I wanted to add that having an abortion is not only emotionally traumatizing, it is physically as well. They had to send an extra nurse into the room to stop my screaming. And though it only lasted 6 minutes, it was unbearable. They tell you it will feel "crampy" during the procedure - that is hardly the word for it. I'm not trying to scare anyone, but I think you should know it's no walk in the park. There is cramping for a couple of days and bleeding for about a week. I'm sure everyone is different in this aspect, but I don't think there is anyone out there this could be pleasant for.
PS - I wanted to add that having an abortion is not only emotionally traumatizing, it is physically as well. They had to send an extra nurse into the room to stop my screaming. And though it only lasted 6 minutes, it was unbearable. They tell you it will feel "crampy" during the procedure - that is hardly the word for it. I'm not trying to scare anyone, but I think you should know it's no walk in the park. There is cramping for a couple of days and bleeding for about a week. I'm sure everyone is different in this aspect, but I don't think there is anyone out there this could be pleasant for.
I am 17 years old and at the time that I had my abortion I was only 16. I love kids and I always wanted to have one of my own someday. However, my doctor told me that I was infertile so I could not conceive. Unfortunately a day came where I was raped by someone I had known for 10 years and then I wound up pregnant. Since I was so young I knew that I could not keep the baby and that's what hurts me the most . The thought that I actually could conceive and that I had to terminate the pregnancy was devastating for me to deal with. It was almost 5 months ago and it still hurts . I don't think the pain ever goes completely away. Everytime something that is slightly emotional comes to my attention I sob for a couple of hours. It's difficult to deal with but it's a day-by-day process.
i had one, last year, its still hard and i still think of the baby, however its better to be positive and think that when you are ready for children they will have a fantastic life and so will you, rather then you struggling for money babe xxx
LESSONS FROM GOD ; What happens to a Baby's Soul after Abortion or Miscarriage
(Please think about this then read the following)
One fine morning at home, I was chanting mantras when Sai Baba appeared and said ''Amarjit, come with me", we reappeared in a Temple with my wife also sitting next to me in the temple Hall.
Baba looked at us and said '' I have brought someone to meet you''
I said, "Baba 'who have you brought''
Baba said ''Look meet your other daughter''
I was totally confused ''Baba you are mistaken we have a daughter we do not have another, ''
'' AHA,! said Baba '' She is your other daughter, do you not, remember the trauma your wife suffered during miscarriage 15 years ago?"
I replied, "Baba, why have you brought her to see us''
I saw this girl standing next to us tall and very serene as if she had been touched by the hand of GOD!.
Baba said '' Amarjit, When the mother has a miscarriage or Abortion it is not automatic that the child's soul ascends, If the mother is constantly immersed in prayers then God intervenes and send Angels to take the Baby soul to Heaven/appropriate place, if not in prayers -- then the Baby soul can be trapped in Limbo, becoming a BHOOT/Spirit , and normally attaches itself to it's mother where it is home!
From the mothers body the Baby soul may cause untold Trauma to its Mother/father and all around. Many times the Soul has no idea that its body/temple has died! The soul watches everything the parents do and interferes with their emotions. Amarjit, this is why its important to immerse in God prayers always.
Amarjit, God has acknowledged your prayers & Devotion & intervened to take your baby soul Home!".
Baba then took hold of our daughters hand and the gates of Heaven opened and he disappeared with the Angels.
Its only when the Hand of God touches us we realise there is more to life then what we perceive.
We should open our senses and allow our Inner Godhead to awaken.
Baba says "I am God, You too are God but you fail to recognise this!
OM SAI RAM Amarjit
With Miscarriage and Abortions invariably the baby soul stays within the mothers Womb where it was conceived as it is home to it.
The mother has no idea why she has gone into depression after miscarriage or abortion. She has no idea it could be the Traumatic Soul stuck to her.
From the womb the Baby Soul then may choose to cause a lot of suffering to her host/ ie Mom and people around. If the baby Soul becomes possessive of the Mother then it will invariably become very jealous and act accordingly with the people attached to MOM!
With an Abortion / Miscarriage while it may be argued that the foetus has no soul in it in the early stages, it was shown to me by Baba that the foetus can be classified as a Phantom Living organism of the Mother similar to ' The Phantom Limb'.
So Aborting the foetus is similar to that of having a trauma when you loose part of your body, say the Limb , Kidney etc. The very fact of removing this living organism causes Untold trauma especially in the Mother.
Our body is the temple of God 'Do not defile your Temple'.
Being born as a woman conceiving Wow, Men find it hard to understand why their women behave strangely.
Think about this - for approx 9 months the Mother has 2 soul within her body hers and the baby's.
The baby's mind can also influence the mother during this period!
Case Study :
My first teaching from Baba happened at a friend's house.
We were praying and suddenly I saw inside his mothers womb a baby soul due to an old miscarriage some 40 years previously.
I asked his Mother to ask God to release this soul to Heaven.
She became nasty and I was asked to leave immediately!
Nowadays I have to be very careful how I word myself.
Case Study
I was praying with a woman who had gone into depression and ill health when suddenly Sai Baba showed me in her womb was a dark energy. I spoke to this energy and it manifested to 2 Aborted souls which the mother had over 9 years!.
The souls were jealous of each other and fighting each other inside her womb giving her health and emotional problems within her family. Baba took the souls away after we prayed for their release their Karma to be forgiven . The lady since has changed for the better.
Case Study
Another lady suffering from Emotional problems had darkness attached to her breast.
When I spoke to this darkness it turned out to be an aborted baby soul which was sucking her mothers breast for milk , energetically and draining Mom of all her energies.
A SPIRIT HAS LIMITLESS Energy
Baba then took away this soul as well. She has changed for the better since with Gods Grace.
If the women dies with the soul still stuck with her then this becomes a Karmic issue. If say the women is reborn as a man or a woman in the next life this trauma still follows the person reincarnated. We have seen sometimes the energy becomes absorbed into a Karma Issue or in some cases the Soul waits for the rebirth of the soul it was attached to and as soon as it reincarnates it attaches itself to this Soul , the new body may not be a women it could be a man.
This Karma can be released thru mantras, prayer deep devotion to God or Sadhanas like Vortex , or the Grace of your Guru.
Amarjit
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(Please think about this then read the following)
One fine morning at home, I was chanting mantras when Sai Baba appeared and said ''Amarjit, come with me", we reappeared in a Temple with my wife also sitting next to me in the temple Hall.
Baba looked at us and said '' I have brought someone to meet you''
I said, "Baba 'who have you brought''
Baba said ''Look meet your other daughter''
I was totally confused ''Baba you are mistaken we have a daughter we do not have another, ''
'' AHA,! said Baba '' She is your other daughter, do you not, remember the trauma your wife suffered during miscarriage 15 years ago?"
I replied, "Baba, why have you brought her to see us''
I saw this girl standing next to us tall and very serene as if she had been touched by the hand of GOD!.
Baba said '' Amarjit, When the mother has a miscarriage or Abortion it is not automatic that the child's soul ascends, If the mother is constantly immersed in prayers then God intervenes and send Angels to take the Baby soul to Heaven/appropriate place, if not in prayers -- then the Baby soul can be trapped in Limbo, becoming a BHOOT/Spirit , and normally attaches itself to it's mother where it is home!
From the mothers body the Baby soul may cause untold Trauma to its Mother/father and all around. Many times the Soul has no idea that its body/temple has died! The soul watches everything the parents do and interferes with their emotions. Amarjit, this is why its important to immerse in God prayers always.
Amarjit, God has acknowledged your prayers & Devotion & intervened to take your baby soul Home!".
Baba then took hold of our daughters hand and the gates of Heaven opened and he disappeared with the Angels.
Its only when the Hand of God touches us we realise there is more to life then what we perceive.
We should open our senses and allow our Inner Godhead to awaken.
Baba says "I am God, You too are God but you fail to recognise this!
OM SAI RAM Amarjit
With Miscarriage and Abortions invariably the baby soul stays within the mothers Womb where it was conceived as it is home to it.
The mother has no idea why she has gone into depression after miscarriage or abortion. She has no idea it could be the Traumatic Soul stuck to her.
From the womb the Baby Soul then may choose to cause a lot of suffering to her host/ ie Mom and people around. If the baby Soul becomes possessive of the Mother then it will invariably become very jealous and act accordingly with the people attached to MOM!
With an Abortion / Miscarriage while it may be argued that the foetus has no soul in it in the early stages, it was shown to me by Baba that the foetus can be classified as a Phantom Living organism of the Mother similar to ' The Phantom Limb'.
So Aborting the foetus is similar to that of having a trauma when you loose part of your body, say the Limb , Kidney etc. The very fact of removing this living organism causes Untold trauma especially in the Mother.
Our body is the temple of God 'Do not defile your Temple'.
Being born as a woman conceiving Wow, Men find it hard to understand why their women behave strangely.
Think about this - for approx 9 months the Mother has 2 soul within her body hers and the baby's.
The baby's mind can also influence the mother during this period!
Case Study :
My first teaching from Baba happened at a friend's house.
We were praying and suddenly I saw inside his mothers womb a baby soul due to an old miscarriage some 40 years previously.
I asked his Mother to ask God to release this soul to Heaven.
She became nasty and I was asked to leave immediately!
Nowadays I have to be very careful how I word myself.
Case Study
I was praying with a woman who had gone into depression and ill health when suddenly Sai Baba showed me in her womb was a dark energy. I spoke to this energy and it manifested to 2 Aborted souls which the mother had over 9 years!.
The souls were jealous of each other and fighting each other inside her womb giving her health and emotional problems within her family. Baba took the souls away after we prayed for their release their Karma to be forgiven . The lady since has changed for the better.
Case Study
Another lady suffering from Emotional problems had darkness attached to her breast.
When I spoke to this darkness it turned out to be an aborted baby soul which was sucking her mothers breast for milk , energetically and draining Mom of all her energies.
A SPIRIT HAS LIMITLESS Energy
Baba then took away this soul as well. She has changed for the better since with Gods Grace.
If the women dies with the soul still stuck with her then this becomes a Karmic issue. If say the women is reborn as a man or a woman in the next life this trauma still follows the person reincarnated. We have seen sometimes the energy becomes absorbed into a Karma Issue or in some cases the Soul waits for the rebirth of the soul it was attached to and as soon as it reincarnates it attaches itself to this Soul , the new body may not be a women it could be a man.
This Karma can be released thru mantras, prayer deep devotion to God or Sadhanas like Vortex , or the Grace of your Guru.
Amarjit
Spiritual Reality - Transcribed | dotSUB
Phantom limb - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
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Don't feel ashamed if you have had or are having an abortion.
Don't listen to who is against it.
It is NOT their Body, And NOT their decision.
I am 17 also. And just found out i was pregnant.
For one i never thought it would happen to me..
But that is normal to feel that way.
When it does happen to you though, you need to do what is best for you, and your future.
If you are young like i am. Your entire future remains ahead of you.
I don't want to have an abortion, and i am sure you guys didnt either.
No woman i think is okay with " killing a baby " but In the end..
It may be what's best for yourself.
I'm not saying you won't be sad when it's over with,
And i am sure i will be devastated when I go in for mine.
But you have to realize like i have that you are making the most
mature, and adult decision by taking into consideration that you
are not able to take care of the child. Especially if no one is supporting you.
If you are going through this, Realize you are NOT alone..
Thousands of women are faced with this challenge everyday.
And most are feeling exatly how you feel.
Have faith.
Faith breeds strength.
And with time you will get through this.
As i will too.
Don't listen to who is against it.
It is NOT their Body, And NOT their decision.
I am 17 also. And just found out i was pregnant.
For one i never thought it would happen to me..
But that is normal to feel that way.
When it does happen to you though, you need to do what is best for you, and your future.
If you are young like i am. Your entire future remains ahead of you.
I don't want to have an abortion, and i am sure you guys didnt either.
No woman i think is okay with " killing a baby " but In the end..
It may be what's best for yourself.
I'm not saying you won't be sad when it's over with,
And i am sure i will be devastated when I go in for mine.
But you have to realize like i have that you are making the most
mature, and adult decision by taking into consideration that you
are not able to take care of the child. Especially if no one is supporting you.
If you are going through this, Realize you are NOT alone..
Thousands of women are faced with this challenge everyday.
And most are feeling exatly how you feel.
Have faith.
Faith breeds strength.
And with time you will get through this.
As i will too.
I also believe that an abortion would be best for me because I just complete my first year of college and I'm not ready for a baby even though I'm pretty far along they told me they could still do the abortion because I just found out the I'm 20 weeks. And the procedure scares me deeply I can't get that idea of my head that something could go wrong and I won't be able to see my love ones again even though they say it's mostly safe. My procedure will be this friday and relived that I know of what I'm doing but I'm scare of something going extremely wrong. Please if anyone had a abortion around that 20 weeks tell me what to expect because i want to be prepare.
I am 21 and i have a little girl who is now three. I was seventeen and i couldn't bring myself to having an abortion. in this past year i have been pregnant 2 times and both times i have had an abortion. it hurts so much more then anything else. And when I look at my daughter and know how tankful for her I am, it hurts me even more knowing what I did. I couldnt stop crying the whole time I was going throw it, and every time i think about it I cry as well. I just don't know if i should still fell this way. I always wonder, that if i had a kid at the age of 17 why cant i have one know, what is stopping me and why couldn't i have an abortion then. Im am just lost and dont know if I should be felling the pain that I have still
I recently had an abortion about two months ago, its not easy to cope with at all. I still cant forget it and i dont know how, i feel so guilty for getting an abortion, but im only 17, and my parents thought that this was the best way to go.
I had an abortion 2 days ago. I never should have done it. I am regretting it so much! I was happy when I found out I was pregnant but my boyfriend was not. He talked me into the abortion and I convinced myself it was the right thing to do. It wasn't! I see a picture of a baby and I just start crying. I will never be able to hold my baby or kiss it or watch it grow up! To make it worse, when they did the ultrasound before the abortion, as I was leaving the room I saw the picture of my baby. You could see it clearly! I wanted to change my mind after that but kept telling myself I was doing what was best! Oh how I wish I had given it more thought and not have done it. Ive wanted nothing more in my life than to be a mom but it just never happend for me and when it did i aborted it. I'm 38 and who knows if I'll ever get to have another baby! But no matter what I will never stop grieving and never forget my baby I should have had!
I'm 20 years old and I had an abortion exactly a month ago today. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make and I still think about the "what ifs". I had to go for an ultrasound before I could have the procedure and seeing my baby with it's little beating heart on that screen... I will never forget that image, it's permanantly in my head and I see it every day. Me and my partner were not in the ideal situation to raise a baby and we just kept on saying to ourselves, and I still say it to myself, that we were better parents for doing it. I'm not going to lie, it sucks. It's kills you inside. But you gotta talk about it, even writing this makes me feel a little bit better. I would absolutely love to talk to other women who has been through it so we can support each other.
I had an abortion 9 months ago, i didnt want to get an abortion but my mom was set on me getting it because she thought i was too young to become a mother, and till this day i have guilt and regrets. The day i got the abortion i felt relief, but weeks after i felt horrible about my decision and the pain is hard to deal with somedays but other days im more positive, everyday i think about my baby and think of what he/she would have looked like. Sometimes i think that i wont be a good mom when the day comes, because of what i did . It's all really hard to deal with and im thinking about getting counseling for the depression i've been feeling.
Hey so this is my first time writing on one of these forums.. I was looking around online for some people's stories about their abortion or hopefully understand more.. I came here because I am feeling a void. This void (I think) is the fact that I don't have any feeling about my abortion..
I had an abortion a week ago when I was about six weeks pregnant. I'm a freshman in college. My boyfriend and I are very much in love and when I found out I was pregnant we decided that day what we needed to do. We are much too young and are absolutely not ready right now to have a child. I'm okay with the decision we made. I'm okay that I am no longer pregnant and having this baby. However, I am currently feeling terrible. But I am not thinking about the procedure at all. I wrote about how I felt the day before the abortion and it was very sad.. but now if I go back to read that, I don't feel anything. My mood is so flat, I am so numb to my feelings.. I understand that my hormones are way up there and as they come down I'm going to be depressed. But how long does this last? I've been having thoughts of suicide, I've been cutting myself.. I know those aren't good ideas but I feel like I have no other choice. I want to give up on everything, give up on school, my future, my life.
I'm not looking at this as a religious aspect. I don't think the spirit of the potential being went anywhere in particular. I'm not thinking about things like that at all. I just see it as it is.. a ball of cells, a baby developing inside of me, but not quite yet. And the procedure is just shedding my uterine lining for me, not allowing anything to stay there and grow.
So I spoke to.. it. The day before my abortion I sat down, placed my hand on my bladder and spoke to this potential being. I rested my head back, looked up, and apologized. I then threw my body forward and laced my fingers in my hair and gripped tightly as I cried harder. I told it how beautiful I bet it would be. I told it that I could teach him or her so many things. I said that what happened was a mistake and I would never want to hurt you. And I am so sorry..I am impeding you from becoming something amazing. You will not look or act like my children of the future, therefore I will always wonder about you. And I don't love you right now, and I don't want to. But I could; I could love you with all of my heart. And I never stopped saying sorry.
My therapist told me that she really believes it would help me to do that. Because if I didn't do before, I would regret that I didn't. It's almost giving yourself a chance to say goodbye, and whatever else you would like to say.. I was skeptical right after I did it because I then felt attached to what was growing inside of me. I thought I would feel devastated when I got the procedure done. But maybe it did work, because I wasn't devastated. I was scared, but I wasn't thinking about how I was "killing my baby" perhaps because I did get that closure that I needed. I feel very fortunate that I was under anesthesia during the procedure. I've read some really upsetting stories of women who have experienced an abortion without being put under anything.
I can't focus.. I am freaking out because when I need to study and do the ton of work I have due for the next two weeks, I end up going into a catatonic state, just staring into space for hours. I am already so exhausted from feeling so down and upset for reasons that I can't even point a finger on. I get light headed and want to fall over sometimes because I won't even breathe. I just want to be with people I love, I want to be with someone who knows what is going on because I feel so lonely. I get to go home on december 15th, but until then I feel so doomed.
I jut really need to hear from someone what they have been through and assure me that I'll be okay. I just want someone to tell me I'll be okay! I need to understand. I need someone who has been through this to talk to me. I guess I'm a little spoiled, having a boyfriend who is being so supportive and trying to help, but I need the words from someone who knows what I am going through..
Thank you for reading this, even if you have nothing to say. Thank you for acknowledging it.
Filiz
I had an abortion a week ago when I was about six weeks pregnant. I'm a freshman in college. My boyfriend and I are very much in love and when I found out I was pregnant we decided that day what we needed to do. We are much too young and are absolutely not ready right now to have a child. I'm okay with the decision we made. I'm okay that I am no longer pregnant and having this baby. However, I am currently feeling terrible. But I am not thinking about the procedure at all. I wrote about how I felt the day before the abortion and it was very sad.. but now if I go back to read that, I don't feel anything. My mood is so flat, I am so numb to my feelings.. I understand that my hormones are way up there and as they come down I'm going to be depressed. But how long does this last? I've been having thoughts of suicide, I've been cutting myself.. I know those aren't good ideas but I feel like I have no other choice. I want to give up on everything, give up on school, my future, my life.
I'm not looking at this as a religious aspect. I don't think the spirit of the potential being went anywhere in particular. I'm not thinking about things like that at all. I just see it as it is.. a ball of cells, a baby developing inside of me, but not quite yet. And the procedure is just shedding my uterine lining for me, not allowing anything to stay there and grow.
So I spoke to.. it. The day before my abortion I sat down, placed my hand on my bladder and spoke to this potential being. I rested my head back, looked up, and apologized. I then threw my body forward and laced my fingers in my hair and gripped tightly as I cried harder. I told it how beautiful I bet it would be. I told it that I could teach him or her so many things. I said that what happened was a mistake and I would never want to hurt you. And I am so sorry..I am impeding you from becoming something amazing. You will not look or act like my children of the future, therefore I will always wonder about you. And I don't love you right now, and I don't want to. But I could; I could love you with all of my heart. And I never stopped saying sorry.
My therapist told me that she really believes it would help me to do that. Because if I didn't do before, I would regret that I didn't. It's almost giving yourself a chance to say goodbye, and whatever else you would like to say.. I was skeptical right after I did it because I then felt attached to what was growing inside of me. I thought I would feel devastated when I got the procedure done. But maybe it did work, because I wasn't devastated. I was scared, but I wasn't thinking about how I was "killing my baby" perhaps because I did get that closure that I needed. I feel very fortunate that I was under anesthesia during the procedure. I've read some really upsetting stories of women who have experienced an abortion without being put under anything.
I can't focus.. I am freaking out because when I need to study and do the ton of work I have due for the next two weeks, I end up going into a catatonic state, just staring into space for hours. I am already so exhausted from feeling so down and upset for reasons that I can't even point a finger on. I get light headed and want to fall over sometimes because I won't even breathe. I just want to be with people I love, I want to be with someone who knows what is going on because I feel so lonely. I get to go home on december 15th, but until then I feel so doomed.
I jut really need to hear from someone what they have been through and assure me that I'll be okay. I just want someone to tell me I'll be okay! I need to understand. I need someone who has been through this to talk to me. I guess I'm a little spoiled, having a boyfriend who is being so supportive and trying to help, but I need the words from someone who knows what I am going through..
Thank you for reading this, even if you have nothing to say. Thank you for acknowledging it.
Filiz
reading these messages has made me feel slightly better. its been about a month since i had an abortion now, im only 16 and felt i was too immature and selfish to have a child i was fine at first but i really am starting to regret it, some days i feel ok about what happened and am almost relieved but other days-mainly nights when im alone i feel sick thinking about it and i cant get it out of my mind of what things could of been. The worst thing was is that my boyfriend promissed to stick by me and we both wanted it deep down, although that is nice to hear it makes me feel even worse about what happened cus i've seen other people do it without the father. If anyone is reading this DONT make a quick decision just because your panicking really think about what you want and how this will effect you because i didnt!
I got an abortion a little over a month ago. I didnt want to get an abortion. My parents made me get one because im only 15. I cried every day and i was 5 and a half weeks pregnant. Sometimes i still cry about it, almost everyday. The slightest things can set it off. I can just be sitting there with my boyfriend and i just start crying. we should be having a baby and that was taken away from me but i didnt really have a choice. while i was sitting there waiting to get called to get it done, the other women were talking. one of them was married with children and she was getting it because he husband didnt wear a condom and they didnt want another baby. another one was a single mom and she said she couldnt afford it by herself because her daughter was getting to old and she wanted electronics. and another was a teenager who had an abortion a year before and was getting another one. I wanted to have this baby and so did my boyfriend. And i feel nothing but pain from this. right after i told my parents i was pregnant my dad wouldnt look at me or talk to me. My mom kept telling me that i was stupid for wanting this baby. My dad had said, well how do you expect us to face people with this. My baby got taken from me, i really hope that this will help somebody some day because i know that i didnt read anything about anyone being forced. Please rethink before you do something because you cannot undo this....I would talk to it, and i kept apologizing and i kept telling it that i didnt want to do this. i want to hold her or him and i wanna watch my baby when their sleeping, but i cant because they took her or him away from me. I dont think ill be a good mom because of what my mother made me do....