Well I answred my question. Wd symptoms are back. sneezing, hot and cold, insomnia do to rls. It is mild I guess. Or not as bad as begining. I know the Kratom will fix this all when I recieve it. I just out of pure frustration of not being able to sleep got upto take 6 lopermide and 2mgs of ativan. From past experience I don't think it will help although have had a few hours of sleep during mild wd's that I did equate to the lope. My body aches and hard to move. I'm going to smoke and hope this puts me to sleep. upside depression not as bad
@Georgia I am asking u is a 120mg methadone per day a BIG dose or not,or average...?
Here is some info I have found on Methadone. I do not know how much my brother was on, so I am not familiar with the normal daily ranges.
From my reading on this, Maintenance dosages for opioid dependence is 20 to 120 mg/day, so it seems as if you are at the upper limit that doctors provide.
The minimally or very mildly over medicated patient may pose a greater problem. During this time the patient experiences effects of a dose slightly in excess of the established tolerance threshold, there is a definite but mild sense of well being. Energy and motivation levels are increased ao that the individual may want to clean house or wax the car, for example. What is important is that the individual not attribute this feeling to the drug, as was the case during the "high" or nodding phase.
The addict may associate this state with being "normal;" hence the term "addict's abnormal normality." The state is experienced after a euphorigenic dose of heroin or methadone. It lasts much longer with methadone.
As the effect wears off, the exaggerated sense of well-being, motivation, and energy are no longer present. This state is in reality the addict or patient's "normal" state, which can be described as a full awareness of one's internal and external environment. This individual , who is just now feeling normal, is convinced that he or she is starting to " get sick."
As further tolerance develops, the abnormal normality is no longer experienced, and the patient complains that the dose is no longer holding and that an increase in methadone dose is needed. If a dose increase is granted, there is a brief return to this condition that the patient thinks is normal. The return is brief in that it depends on a dose increase in excess of the established threshold ----- which will further raise the tolerance threshold to the new dose level. When that happens, the patient is back again wanting more methadone.
I tossed and turned all night. I got up hoping the kratom arrieved. it has not. I will hope it arrieves soon. Not much else from me at moment.
How long this process takes, I don't know.
I know how important it is to be honest, I have been two feet in this whole time. This is first time I'm on the line and leaning towards a meeting with the dd. I made a call and everything. now I have till 4 to change my mind. The very thought of going is making me nausious yet everyminute seems so long as I wait and hope he calls saying come sooner. Anyone who knows dd time 4 means prob 9 if that's the case I will have for sure beat this urge out of frustration towards the dd. But if 4 is 4 even 4:15 I dnt know what will stop me.It is important to note the pure illogic behind this. I fought with my life to stay away from the substance just a week later to b waiting on it. Knowing what I have just been through. I watch the clock with the most uncomfortable feeling of both regret(allready) and inticipation. 3:33 these minutes seeming almost longer than the ones last night. I need help. I need to b stronger.
Well Purrrpill ! I'm also with you! Kratom helps me to fight depression and similar and will also help you in your addiction problem! :)
Silvyius
I know I sound like a cheer leader, but I know how important it is to have someone pulling for you. If it wasn't for baby and Ray from this forum helping me I may not have been successful.