Still Day 6.
One of the worst parts of today has been the fact that with all the physical activity and no pain medicine, I am starting to feel the actual pain that got me here in the first place. I guess the good news is that I've learned that I don't need the meds every day. But the bad news is that I'm in a lot of pain at the moment and I have no way to relieve it.
More good news is that the jitters have eased a bit, but I can't seem to shake the headache. And now the pain... oh, and the diarrhea has started again (but that's nothing that immodium can't fix).
I sure wish we had a bathtub. I'm going to take some ibuprofen and lay down to rest before my next shift starts and hope to hell that I somehow find the strength to push through the pain. I guess I have no choice.
I still wish there was an effective pain med that wasn't so addictive and so bad for you.
I hope others are doing well. What a journey this past week has been.
One of the worst parts of today has been the fact that with all the physical activity and no pain medicine, I am starting to feel the actual pain that got me here in the first place. I guess the good news is that I've learned that I don't need the meds every day. But the bad news is that I'm in a lot of pain at the moment and I have no way to relieve it.
More good news is that the jitters have eased a bit, but I can't seem to shake the headache. And now the pain... oh, and the diarrhea has started again (but that's nothing that immodium can't fix).
I sure wish we had a bathtub. I'm going to take some ibuprofen and lay down to rest before my next shift starts and hope to hell that I somehow find the strength to push through the pain. I guess I have no choice.
I still wish there was an effective pain med that wasn't so addictive and so bad for you.
I hope others are doing well. What a journey this past week has been.
Day 9.
I decided not to get my refill yesterday. I'm still suffering and I just don't want to have to go through this again. So this will be my one and only time going through withdrawal.
I still feel jittery and anxious. Can't sleep and also having short bouts of depressed thoughts and feelings but I'm trying to be very conscious of those moments and redirecting quickly so that I don't stay down too long although I must admit it is hard when you feel like c**p.
I'm having a difficult time concentrating and maintaining focus at work. Just all around been very difficult and I haven't seen much improvement over the last 4 days or so. I feel exhausted and lethargic. But it's still better than Day 3! That's for sure!
So this will probably be my last post. I'm going to continue to push through because I have no other choice. If I don't do it now, I'll have to do it later and I've already put in 9 days so as far as I'm concerned, there's no going back. This is just too awful to have to go through again. Had I known that withdrawal would be this bad and last this long, I would have done a lot of things very differently.
Good luck to all of you. I wish you all health and happiness.
I decided not to get my refill yesterday. I'm still suffering and I just don't want to have to go through this again. So this will be my one and only time going through withdrawal.
I still feel jittery and anxious. Can't sleep and also having short bouts of depressed thoughts and feelings but I'm trying to be very conscious of those moments and redirecting quickly so that I don't stay down too long although I must admit it is hard when you feel like c**p.
I'm having a difficult time concentrating and maintaining focus at work. Just all around been very difficult and I haven't seen much improvement over the last 4 days or so. I feel exhausted and lethargic. But it's still better than Day 3! That's for sure!
So this will probably be my last post. I'm going to continue to push through because I have no other choice. If I don't do it now, I'll have to do it later and I've already put in 9 days so as far as I'm concerned, there's no going back. This is just too awful to have to go through again. Had I known that withdrawal would be this bad and last this long, I would have done a lot of things very differently.
Good luck to all of you. I wish you all health and happiness.
i was a heavy heroin user for 3 years and strungout on OC's for the 2 years before that. i was put on a suboxone by a doctor and it was the greatest thing ever. it took away all the DT syptoms. but now after 2 years on the subs. they are trying to ween me off it its not going as well as i hoped it would. i was on 3 8mg tabs a day n got taken down to 1mg a day. im not not taking any and suffering terrible withdrawls, not asbad as quting cold but still pretty efn bad. so my advice to anyone is if you can do it without the help of pills, DO IT. if not dont stay on them as long as i did. it just replaced one drug with another. =(
I need some help.... I am prescribed 90 oxycodone 5/325 per month for back pain been taking them for over a year now. The problem is they started not to work any more and no im up to taking 10 to 20 per day.. I need to get off these like NOW... I wont let myself stop taking them since i am terrified of the withdrawal. Nor can i talk to anyone about it.. I can not take time off work. i have to stop cold turkey or i will never stop. How bad are the withdrawals and can i handle it? how long do they last? When will the worst part of it begin? I really need support. like i said i cant talk to anyone about it i dont want anyone to know as it will probably ruin my job and home life....today is 5/23/2010 and the last one i took was about two hours ago and im not going to let myself take any more.. I heard that blood pressure meds will help a little i do have them,Ibuprophen,Methacarbamol muscle relaxers, and i have three tramadol pills..I do not have the money opr resources to get any prescription meds to do this.. I have to try and do this with natural or over the counter meds..My pain management doctor already warned me if they find out i was abusing they would lock me up in rehab.. I wont let that happen so im doing this on my own. I am really mad at my doctor for prescribing me the oxycodone without letting me know they were addicting and now im stuck. Any info on natural or OTC meds to help withdrawal would be greatly appreciated. Today is the last day im going to let myself take any since i have flushed what i had left of the oxys to get them away from me please help... I am terrified of the withdrawal thats coming..Theres got to be a way to minimize withdrawal without other presciption meds that will only start the whole chain over again...
Good to see you got through it Jack. Now stay off!
Of course I am back here again, doing a very quick taper. Had a short relapse, but after these relapses I always taper off to a small dose and stay on that until I can get off totally over a weekend. This should be pretty easy, but I am so stupid for doing this over and over again. Why I do these quick little runs is beyond me. I need to just stay off them though.
Anyways most of the time I'm feeling good, only feeling slightly sweaty and anxious when I wake up in the morning. May buy a small amount of herb for the weekend when I should be off. However I have a feeling that stopping with this taper is going to be relatively painless.
Of course I am back here again, doing a very quick taper. Had a short relapse, but after these relapses I always taper off to a small dose and stay on that until I can get off totally over a weekend. This should be pretty easy, but I am so stupid for doing this over and over again. Why I do these quick little runs is beyond me. I need to just stay off them though.
Anyways most of the time I'm feeling good, only feeling slightly sweaty and anxious when I wake up in the morning. May buy a small amount of herb for the weekend when I should be off. However I have a feeling that stopping with this taper is going to be relatively painless.
Still on schedule to jump off this weekend, took hopefully my last dose today (will take a very small one before work tomorrow if needed but that is doubtful). The material I'm using has a long half life so the heavy stuff won't start till tomorrow night. This really isn't worth it as I really only enjoy my first three days of my short relapses and then I have to take a 4 to 6 days of tapering just to get me to a point where I feel confident to jump off.
I just want to remind everyone to do what it takes to get over the WDs. For a mild habit like I have right now, I find that some low abv beers and some bud can really help. Time it so you at least have two days of little to no obligations to get over the worst of the physical stuff. Do not be afraid of taking an OTC sleep med or two (I like dipenhydramine). Valerian can help. I always start smoking cigarettes again during withdrawals... no clue why.
Make sure you have some protein shakes and or smoothies. Good multivitamins as well. The Thomas Recipe has good suggestions on aminos. Showers and baths help tremendously.
It sounds really cheesy but talking to yourself in a self motivating way can really help. Also, I like to do little things for myself. Like placing a cup of water and hanging up a comfy outfit to wear for when I get home from work.
Once you get through it once, you then know you can do it again. Which always helps. Try to look at the symptoms as your body repairing itself. A positive perspective is so key.
I just want to remind everyone to do what it takes to get over the WDs. For a mild habit like I have right now, I find that some low abv beers and some bud can really help. Time it so you at least have two days of little to no obligations to get over the worst of the physical stuff. Do not be afraid of taking an OTC sleep med or two (I like dipenhydramine). Valerian can help. I always start smoking cigarettes again during withdrawals... no clue why.
Make sure you have some protein shakes and or smoothies. Good multivitamins as well. The Thomas Recipe has good suggestions on aminos. Showers and baths help tremendously.
It sounds really cheesy but talking to yourself in a self motivating way can really help. Also, I like to do little things for myself. Like placing a cup of water and hanging up a comfy outfit to wear for when I get home from work.
Once you get through it once, you then know you can do it again. Which always helps. Try to look at the symptoms as your body repairing itself. A positive perspective is so key.
Today is the day I take the plunge... so far nothing major. Slight anxiety, slight runny nose and very slight cravings. Usually I find when I taper like this after using for such a short time that the worst is over after 48 hours.
Work is going to suck but I'm going to have to grin and bear it. Nothing major on the schedule for the day thankfully.
Took 3 ibuprofen just in case. Am going to be watching the coffee intake as well today. Going to have a half protein shake before I leave.
Just have to get to 5 o clock today. Then I can lay about. Going to be getting a nice bag of bud as well.
Work is going to suck but I'm going to have to grin and bear it. Nothing major on the schedule for the day thankfully.
Took 3 ibuprofen just in case. Am going to be watching the coffee intake as well today. Going to have a half protein shake before I leave.
Just have to get to 5 o clock today. Then I can lay about. Going to be getting a nice bag of bud as well.
Same Guest thats been posting:
Day 2, feel slight naseau, anxious, slight diarrhea, joints feel annoying, depression and slight craving. Nothing major, but a pain in the butt for sure. Great way to ruin a weekend. Very inconvenient, and I start to feel crappy when the taper starts which was six days ago. This is only from a month of usage. I have been through way worse situations years ago, but now my body gets hooked much easier.
However, I am having times when I feel pretty good, knowing from experience, this means that tomorrow I should feel pretty good.
Just have to push through today... going to stop and buy a smoothie soon. I have been able to eat 1 full meal for the last two days. Hopefully I can get some solid food down later today.
Day 2, feel slight naseau, anxious, slight diarrhea, joints feel annoying, depression and slight craving. Nothing major, but a pain in the butt for sure. Great way to ruin a weekend. Very inconvenient, and I start to feel crappy when the taper starts which was six days ago. This is only from a month of usage. I have been through way worse situations years ago, but now my body gets hooked much easier.
However, I am having times when I feel pretty good, knowing from experience, this means that tomorrow I should feel pretty good.
Just have to push through today... going to stop and buy a smoothie soon. I have been able to eat 1 full meal for the last two days. Hopefully I can get some solid food down later today.
Day 3
Feeling better today, less depression, less anxiety.. still feel some tension, especially in my back. Keeping catching myself just kinda wandering around, unsure of what to do. I just do small chores to waste time and contribute. Did have quiet a few beers last night not going to lie. I can have a few tonight but I gotta work in the morning. Nausea is way down but still there. Of course the beers don't help in that regard... but that payoff is worth it for me.
Actually slept okay last night but that was probably because of the booze and the two Simply Sleeps (diphenhydramine). Woke up a few times but its not that "wide awake" thing and I would just eventually drift back to sleep. Usually my sleep patterns are disrupted for about a week.
Again, I only used for about a month this time, with a quick taper at the end as well.
Will probably smoke a small amount of cannabis later today. I took one hit this morning.
Feeling better today, less depression, less anxiety.. still feel some tension, especially in my back. Keeping catching myself just kinda wandering around, unsure of what to do. I just do small chores to waste time and contribute. Did have quiet a few beers last night not going to lie. I can have a few tonight but I gotta work in the morning. Nausea is way down but still there. Of course the beers don't help in that regard... but that payoff is worth it for me.
Actually slept okay last night but that was probably because of the booze and the two Simply Sleeps (diphenhydramine). Woke up a few times but its not that "wide awake" thing and I would just eventually drift back to sleep. Usually my sleep patterns are disrupted for about a week.
Again, I only used for about a month this time, with a quick taper at the end as well.
Will probably smoke a small amount of cannabis later today. I took one hit this morning.
Forgot to add:
As soon as you feel able to (usually day 3 or 4) start taking in alot of water and protein shakes. Try to get some solid food into you. I have been able to manage dinner every night which is good.
Also again, start to move around. Even if its just a walk to the end of the street and back. Maybe try go out in public, sortof like a reintroduction to society. Sunglasses can be worn if needed. 8)
As soon as you feel able to (usually day 3 or 4) start taking in alot of water and protein shakes. Try to get some solid food into you. I have been able to manage dinner every night which is good.
Also again, start to move around. Even if its just a walk to the end of the street and back. Maybe try go out in public, sortof like a reintroduction to society. Sunglasses can be worn if needed. 8)
Day 3 5:00
Really feel much much better, major reduction in all physical and psychological symptoms. Just feeling very blahish right now, kinda reflecting back on the past few days and wondering why I keep ending up here.
In a few days I am going to go talk to a doctor about getting on an anti-depressent. I've really got to cut out the opiates and cut back the booze.
Around 2:30 today I went on a very long walk which seemed to be about the breaking point. Since coming back from that I've felt much better. Took care of a few errands during the afternoon. Did a bunch of chores as well. Really just tried hard to keep myself occupied all day. Now I can sit back and relax, have a few beers (I cut back on the beer intake, just opened my first one) and watch the game.
Anyways hopes this helps someone. I for whatever reason feel the need to post on this thread when going through my minor withdrawals.
KEEP AT IT EVERYONE!! YOU CAN GET OVER IT!! WHATEVER IT TAKES!!!
Really feel much much better, major reduction in all physical and psychological symptoms. Just feeling very blahish right now, kinda reflecting back on the past few days and wondering why I keep ending up here.
In a few days I am going to go talk to a doctor about getting on an anti-depressent. I've really got to cut out the opiates and cut back the booze.
Around 2:30 today I went on a very long walk which seemed to be about the breaking point. Since coming back from that I've felt much better. Took care of a few errands during the afternoon. Did a bunch of chores as well. Really just tried hard to keep myself occupied all day. Now I can sit back and relax, have a few beers (I cut back on the beer intake, just opened my first one) and watch the game.
Anyways hopes this helps someone. I for whatever reason feel the need to post on this thread when going through my minor withdrawals.
KEEP AT IT EVERYONE!! YOU CAN GET OVER IT!! WHATEVER IT TAKES!!!
Morning Day 4:
After my post yesterday the hours just started clicking off. I had a pretty enjoyable evening even. It was Sunday and it was the best I have felt since the previous Wednesday (when my taper really started to get low).
Feel okay (better then yesterday). Woke up at about 4:30... couldn't fall back to sleep. That is okay because I had to drop someone off at a bus. Came back to my house and got ready. Just getting ready to go to work. Right now just feeling slight anxiety and a bit down in the dumps. Work shouldn't be too much of an issue today, it may be extra boring and a little long but oh well.
Anyways, I didn't mention the whole time, but today is my b-day. I want to give myself the gift of no more opiates. I'm prepared to go get a little counseling and take some meds if need be. I've had periods of years when I don't use them. These short relapses are worthless and are basically playing with fire.
Anyways I think this is my last post, I may try to update in a week or two.
To everyone out there going through it, my thoughts and intentions are with you. You can do it! Keep heading towards the light, you will be there faster then you can imagine.
After my post yesterday the hours just started clicking off. I had a pretty enjoyable evening even. It was Sunday and it was the best I have felt since the previous Wednesday (when my taper really started to get low).
Feel okay (better then yesterday). Woke up at about 4:30... couldn't fall back to sleep. That is okay because I had to drop someone off at a bus. Came back to my house and got ready. Just getting ready to go to work. Right now just feeling slight anxiety and a bit down in the dumps. Work shouldn't be too much of an issue today, it may be extra boring and a little long but oh well.
Anyways, I didn't mention the whole time, but today is my b-day. I want to give myself the gift of no more opiates. I'm prepared to go get a little counseling and take some meds if need be. I've had periods of years when I don't use them. These short relapses are worthless and are basically playing with fire.
Anyways I think this is my last post, I may try to update in a week or two.
To everyone out there going through it, my thoughts and intentions are with you. You can do it! Keep heading towards the light, you will be there faster then you can imagine.
Day 10:
Feeling pretty much over it, just having some slight cravings, depression is there and so is the anxiety, put it seems to cycle and is pretty mild. Got through the week fine. Weekend is fine, mainly trying to fight the boredom. Sleep is back to normal, I have always been an early riser though. Seems like I am waking up still right before I would take my morning dose. That first two hours are usually the worst. Then as the day goes on the depression and anxiety seem to fade and by the evening I am enjoy myself.
Anyways someone in my house has a script. I have been fine avoiding it. I know if I use it will A) Not really do anything B) Make me feel guilty C) slow down my recovery. The few times I have thought of it I then think about those three points.
Cannabis seems to really help, especially in the later periods. I have a bit left and its start to lose its usefulness (coincidentally as I am noticing my tolerance to it rise). I will be cutting that out by the end of the week.
Feeling pretty much over it, just having some slight cravings, depression is there and so is the anxiety, put it seems to cycle and is pretty mild. Got through the week fine. Weekend is fine, mainly trying to fight the boredom. Sleep is back to normal, I have always been an early riser though. Seems like I am waking up still right before I would take my morning dose. That first two hours are usually the worst. Then as the day goes on the depression and anxiety seem to fade and by the evening I am enjoy myself.
Anyways someone in my house has a script. I have been fine avoiding it. I know if I use it will A) Not really do anything B) Make me feel guilty C) slow down my recovery. The few times I have thought of it I then think about those three points.
Cannabis seems to really help, especially in the later periods. I have a bit left and its start to lose its usefulness (coincidentally as I am noticing my tolerance to it rise). I will be cutting that out by the end of the week.
Day 20:
Things are really starting to click for me. Looking back on it, my relapses were so frequent over the past few months that my body was really not being given enough time to relax. This meant it took a longer time to clear up. Sure the physical stuff was over after 4 days but the mental effects and depression continued longer then I though (however it became much milder).
Anyways not good, and scary. I just need to continue to tell myself I cannot use opiates anymore. I've turned them down a few times.
Anyways this is my last post, hopefully on this thread ever. I hope I have helped some people or at least given them some hope.
Things are really starting to click for me. Looking back on it, my relapses were so frequent over the past few months that my body was really not being given enough time to relax. This meant it took a longer time to clear up. Sure the physical stuff was over after 4 days but the mental effects and depression continued longer then I though (however it became much milder).
Anyways not good, and scary. I just need to continue to tell myself I cannot use opiates anymore. I've turned them down a few times.
Anyways this is my last post, hopefully on this thread ever. I hope I have helped some people or at least given them some hope.
I'm just finishing day 3 without tramadol. Yesterday wasn't bad so I thought I was over the hump then WHAM! today was rough. The sleepless, tossing and turning nights are catching up quick! I'm hoping tomorrow is better. I've been down this road before and even took suboxin for 5 months to kick the habit once about 2 years ago. I've had 2 shoulder surgeries and I suffer from chronic burcitis so unfortunatley for me, pain meds are fairly accessible. I just wish I hadn't fallen back into the habit. I've read alot of posts stressing exercise... It's tough to muster the motivation but oddly enough it does help. Alot. I'm trying to stay upbeat but as we all know, that is hard at times. I'm just going to stick through it. Everyday is 1 day closer to being normal again. Exercise, comfort food, friends and family is the key. and don't dwell on it when small things are suddenly getting you down. It's just a temporary state of mind that will pass.