[ I cannot find a facility anywhere that will accept me. I have written every talk show under the sun and no one is helping!
I have called a every facility I can find on the internet, and hospitals that have drug programs. Either they won't take me or they seem more like a prison ward then a rehab facility. I can not do the 12 step, this is not what this person needs. What I need is a place that will preserve my dignity and my self esteame. I had a real crappy childhood and spent the last forty years trying to become a human being now all the human being have left the planet and I am the only one left.
I do not know what to do, HELP!
STRAIGHT TALK!!!!!
As a physician who does out patient detox, I am very familiar with patients like you. You want detox but only on YOUR terms. Your expectations are completely unrealistic and unachievable. You will never get the "help" you want simply because you expect modern detox methods to conform to YOUR expectations and for you to call all the shots. Realize that your own chioces got you here and accept responsibility. Stop blaming others, doctors, friends, family, your childhood for your addiction. Life is what it is regardless of where you start from. You need to get a bigger shovel to get me to pay attention to the BS you are throwing at yourself and others. I've seen it all and you aren't convincing anyone, even yourself!
You don't "need" 12 step? Again, bad choice. I guess you REALLY know what you need.....like another OXY. Your assessment of what you "need" got you in this shape to begin with. You must realize that any choice that you make at this point that doesn't include REAL detox is highly suspect.
NEWS FLASH.....Your plan hasn't worked, won't work, can't work. You obviously are trying to convince yourself that you REALLY want detox. You don't. Yet. If you did, you would leap at any chance to do so. You need to realize that your "self esteem" isn't what's at stake here. Your future as a functional human is. Your dignity is soon to follow.
We haven't left the planet. Your expectations, however, are otherworldly and are WAY out there. Maybe you're the one who has left the planet. Come back to earth with your expectations, get in a detox center (ANY detox center) and get straightened out. Stop wasting your life, everyone else's time and your breath on your worn out excuses.
Tough talking but caring,
Dr. Bwana
Dr Bwana,
You talk as if you know everything!!
Who the hell do you think you are??
Judging people as if you really know!!
Just because you witness something doesnt mean you know it.
Information isnt knowledge--experience is.
So, until you experience something...keep your rude thoughts to yourself----you havent a freaking clue!!
It is doctors like you who have people seeking drugs in the streets.
So what if someone wants a certain medication to help them get through this political incorrect world we live in.
And why do you even care--their actions should not effect you so.
If doctors got their head out of the ass and quit acting like God's,
then perhaps they would realize that one drug is no better than the next.
YOU ARE A HYPOCRITE!!
I am now down to 15 mg I can get to anywhere from 4-6 hours and then the withdraws go away, hot/cold sweats, leg pain. BUT, i am struggling breathing, and it is when I lower my dosage. So if I take 15 mg, it will hit me in 2 hours the breathing problems. I never smoked cigs, so I have to cut a pill in 4 and take 1/4 added to the 15 mg so I can breath and my vision is also blurry too, all I hate this .
was on Ocycodone for 2 years then the last two years on suboxone, but now I can't get the suboxone for free anymore. Got it for free the last year, i live in california and Medical is giving not covering. So I went to 20 mg of hydrocodone 3 weeks ago so avoid suboxone withdraws. A Night mare, trip to ER and constant saliva wanting to spit every second. Last Tuesday pain doc put me back on Oxycodone, so she nI taper off that is when the breathing problems start any one have a similar situation.?
BTW feels like I had had the three week flu.
Dr. Bwana wrote:
[ I cannot find a facility anywhere that will accept me. I have written every talk show under the sun and no one is helping!
I have called a every facility I can find on the internet, and hospitals that have drug programs. Either they won't take me or they seem more like a prison ward then a rehab facility. I can not do the 12 step, this is not what this person needs. What I need is a place that will preserve my dignity and my self esteame. I had a real crappy childhood and spent the last forty years trying to become a human being now all the human being have left the planet and I am the only one left.
I do not know what to do, HELP!
STRAIGHT TALK!!!!!
As a physician who does out patient detox, I am very familiar with patients like you. You want detox but only on YOUR terms. Your expectations are completely unrealistic and unachievable. You will never get the "help" you want simply because you expect modern detox methods to conform to YOUR expectations and for you to call all the shots. Realize that your own chioces got you here and accept responsibility. Stop blaming others, doctors, friends, family, your childhood for your addiction. Life is what it is regardless of where you start from. You need to get a bigger shovel to get me to pay attention to the BS you are throwing at yourself and others. I've seen it all and you aren't convincing anyone, even yourself!
You don't "need" 12 step? Again, bad choice. I guess you REALLY know what you need.....like another OXY. Your assessment of what you "need" got you in this shape to begin with. You must realize that any choice that you make at this point that doesn't include REAL detox is highly suspect.
NEWS FLASH.....Your plan hasn't worked, won't work, can't work. You obviously are trying to convince yourself that you REALLY want detox. You don't. Yet. If you did, you would leap at any chance to do so. You need to realize that your "self esteem" isn't what's at stake here. Your future as a functional human is. Your dignity is soon to follow.
We haven't left the planet. Your expectations, however, are otherworldly and are WAY out there. Maybe you're the one who has left the planet. Come back to earth with your expectations, get in a detox center (ANY detox center) and get straightened out. Stop wasting your life, everyone else's time and your breath on your worn out excuses.
Tough talking but caring,
Dr. Bwana
Dr Bwana,
You talk as if you know everything!!
Who the hell do you think you are??
Judging people as if you really know!!
Just because you witness something doesnt mean you know it.
Information isnt knowledge--experience is.
So, until you experience something...keep your rude thoughts to yourself----you havent a freaking clue!!
It is doctors like you who have people seeking drugs in the streets.
So what if someone wants a certain medication to help them get through this political incorrect world we live in.
And why do you even care--their actions should not effect you so.
If doctors got their head out of the ass and quit acting like God's,
then perhaps they would realize that one drug is no better than the next.
YOU ARE A HYPOCRITE!!
I agree with alot of the things you said Dr. however, Detox centers are a joke. If you are in fact a Dr. you will tell anybody to go to a hospital because it helps fellow Dr's like yourself receive a paycheck. Rehabs are the biggest waste of money. The only bigger pieces if chit than a rehab Dr. is a pharm rep. They have 0 integrity and don't care how many lives they destroy to get a paycheck. My brother is a P.A. and if i went to the hospital for every little thing that he tells me for then I would be paying hospital bills the rest of my life. Nobody needs professional attention to detox, it's simply willpower. To tell somebody that they need special treatment to do something is just a bash to one's self-esteem. I do believe Dr's are needed for society but any Dr. that would run a pain clinic is just plain trash