I'm amazed at the nearly identical parallels between all the posts! I'm almost 24, been smokin on and off since I was 16 or 17. (That's the first time I've actually looked back and realized I've been doing this for like 8 years...) Like everyone else I'm in that mindset that it's once again time to quit weed but I know I'm addicted and I'm finding it difficult to find motivation to quit completely and never go back. The one major difference is the amount that I smoke. Between both me and my girlfriend, it probably takes 2 weeks to go through an eighth. All I need is a half gram joint between me and my girl, and i usually leave a pretty fat roach, sometimes even a half joint. I do live in Vancouver Canada though. It's always the AAA primo BC bud that I get from a reliable hookup. And only 25 bucks an 8th. Another reason I love livin here.
I've also used ecstasy and cocaine, but I was (surprisingly) able to quit those relatively easily even after regular use. I was definitely addicted but the negative affects were great enough for me to wake up and leave them behind forever. For those thinking of trying either, ecstasy definitely causes brain damage. Near the end of my raving days I would sometimes forget simple words like 'fridge' or 'compass'. When I was looking at a fridge and realized I had forgotten what that big box that keeps my food in it was called, I had no problem leaving that drug behind. (Luckily I seem to have regained most of my intelligence, although I'll never know if I will get it all back). I also began losing friends to cocaine. I think it just didn't affect me as much, I didn't completely lose control of my life to it. But some friends weren't so lucky. They put the drug over everything: family, friends, financial situation, and their jobs. And I can't even find them anymore. I hope for the best but I fear the worst.
I can't even imagine what crack or heroin must be like, but its clear that there is a distinction between hard and soft drugs. Hard drugs like these or X or coke will ruin your life eventually without a doubt. The problem I'm having is quitting the soft drug with which I have a love/hate relationship, my old friend Mary Jane.
Weed seems different. I'm a daily smoker but I get A's in university. I'm 3 months away from gradding with my 2nd degree and I'm in the top 15% of the class. I have a girlfriend, a job, and I have a decent relationship with my family, although I think the weed has affected my relationship with them somewhat. I have trouble quitting when I seem to be moving ahead in life while enjoying the positive affects of this drug. The one major reason I feel it's time to quit is because I am home with my girlfriend almost every night getting high instead of going out and experiencing the world. Sometimes we'll go out first and have some nightcap tokes before bed instead. What I need help with is the motivation to quit. With other drugs the negatives always outweighed the positives, but with this one its pretty close.
People always want things to be so black and white.
Drugs are bad.
No, drugs are good, they make me feel great!
Neither is right. Drugs are good AND drugs are bad. It's our choice whether those goods outweigh those bads.
I think what it comes down to is that I could be a much better person if I quit. What could I be doing with all of those hours I spend baked playing video games and munchin out?
What do you think?
I've also used ecstasy and cocaine, but I was (surprisingly) able to quit those relatively easily even after regular use. I was definitely addicted but the negative affects were great enough for me to wake up and leave them behind forever. For those thinking of trying either, ecstasy definitely causes brain damage. Near the end of my raving days I would sometimes forget simple words like 'fridge' or 'compass'. When I was looking at a fridge and realized I had forgotten what that big box that keeps my food in it was called, I had no problem leaving that drug behind. (Luckily I seem to have regained most of my intelligence, although I'll never know if I will get it all back). I also began losing friends to cocaine. I think it just didn't affect me as much, I didn't completely lose control of my life to it. But some friends weren't so lucky. They put the drug over everything: family, friends, financial situation, and their jobs. And I can't even find them anymore. I hope for the best but I fear the worst.
I can't even imagine what crack or heroin must be like, but its clear that there is a distinction between hard and soft drugs. Hard drugs like these or X or coke will ruin your life eventually without a doubt. The problem I'm having is quitting the soft drug with which I have a love/hate relationship, my old friend Mary Jane.
Weed seems different. I'm a daily smoker but I get A's in university. I'm 3 months away from gradding with my 2nd degree and I'm in the top 15% of the class. I have a girlfriend, a job, and I have a decent relationship with my family, although I think the weed has affected my relationship with them somewhat. I have trouble quitting when I seem to be moving ahead in life while enjoying the positive affects of this drug. The one major reason I feel it's time to quit is because I am home with my girlfriend almost every night getting high instead of going out and experiencing the world. Sometimes we'll go out first and have some nightcap tokes before bed instead. What I need help with is the motivation to quit. With other drugs the negatives always outweighed the positives, but with this one its pretty close.
People always want things to be so black and white.
Drugs are bad.
No, drugs are good, they make me feel great!
Neither is right. Drugs are good AND drugs are bad. It's our choice whether those goods outweigh those bads.
I think what it comes down to is that I could be a much better person if I quit. What could I be doing with all of those hours I spend baked playing video games and munchin out?
What do you think?
I have to agree with the previous posting. While I will admit that marijuana can be abused just like alcohol or any other substance, I think many of you are using it as a crutch. Can you honestly tell me that some of you simply weren't lazy to begin with and want to place blame?
I don't know, but I started smoking when I was 23 and I am almost 26 now. If anything, weed helped me relax and quit being a high strung ball of nerves. Before I smoked, I was working a dead-end job living at home with my parents. Since I began smoking I began my own online business, got a beautiful apartment, am currently one class shy of receiving a Bachelor's at a major university, got a girlfriend, and I can bench 200 pounds more. One thing about marijuana, is that it excellent for weight lifting since it relaxes the muscles. I am not a stereotypical "stoner" that Hollywood displays on its shows. I am smart, successful, athletic, and strong.
Has weed affected me socially? I can't honestly say. Even before I smoked I never liked people much. Long before I started smoking I learned no one gives a c**p about anyone but themselves, and the "Christian" people of this world picked at my weaknesses, such as being a short guy with speech problems. I still go out consistently, but I do enjoy staying in and enjoying my apartment that I worked so hard for.
Did I mention that the weed helped relax my nerves to the point where my stuttering is nearly eliminated? Stop ABUSING a substance and accept that if used RESPONSIBLY that there is significant medical benefit.
I don't know, but I started smoking when I was 23 and I am almost 26 now. If anything, weed helped me relax and quit being a high strung ball of nerves. Before I smoked, I was working a dead-end job living at home with my parents. Since I began smoking I began my own online business, got a beautiful apartment, am currently one class shy of receiving a Bachelor's at a major university, got a girlfriend, and I can bench 200 pounds more. One thing about marijuana, is that it excellent for weight lifting since it relaxes the muscles. I am not a stereotypical "stoner" that Hollywood displays on its shows. I am smart, successful, athletic, and strong.
Has weed affected me socially? I can't honestly say. Even before I smoked I never liked people much. Long before I started smoking I learned no one gives a c**p about anyone but themselves, and the "Christian" people of this world picked at my weaknesses, such as being a short guy with speech problems. I still go out consistently, but I do enjoy staying in and enjoying my apartment that I worked so hard for.
Did I mention that the weed helped relax my nerves to the point where my stuttering is nearly eliminated? Stop ABUSING a substance and accept that if used RESPONSIBLY that there is significant medical benefit.
hi there,
I am 23. I have been smoking weed for 8 yrs, pretty much consistently, apart from 3 months (before a potential test!)
I love the stuff, and really cannot see a good enough reason for stopping right now!
I too, as many of us "stoners" out there, have a degree. I can speak almost 3 languages, i jump out of planes, oh, and actually have a normal life, with its ups and downs, trials and tribulations!!!
so why, for the love of all things bright and beautiful, should I stop?!?
Come on people!!!
If it weren't for the fact, that we knew at some point, in the day, we would be able to enjoy the delights of the spliff/pipe or bong; life would seem somewhat more dreary and (a pain in the ass!)
Lets perhaps try not to "give-up" permanently, as I feel this is quite a harsh judgement for a regular smoker! why should we sacrifice all!!!
instead just balance it out;
your need to smoke is not greater than your need for air...
do not think you are addicted, more that you just understand and appreciate...
so long as you still do "sh*t" in your life, and achieve your goals- no matter how big or small-you can still smoke occasionally! why not...
by the by, my name is rachel... was really a pleasure letting all that off my chest! spanx
ps i would like to speak to bcbuddy at some point if possible, we sound very similar!
I am 23. I have been smoking weed for 8 yrs, pretty much consistently, apart from 3 months (before a potential test!)
I love the stuff, and really cannot see a good enough reason for stopping right now!
I too, as many of us "stoners" out there, have a degree. I can speak almost 3 languages, i jump out of planes, oh, and actually have a normal life, with its ups and downs, trials and tribulations!!!
so why, for the love of all things bright and beautiful, should I stop?!?
Come on people!!!
If it weren't for the fact, that we knew at some point, in the day, we would be able to enjoy the delights of the spliff/pipe or bong; life would seem somewhat more dreary and (a pain in the ass!)
Lets perhaps try not to "give-up" permanently, as I feel this is quite a harsh judgement for a regular smoker! why should we sacrifice all!!!
instead just balance it out;
your need to smoke is not greater than your need for air...
do not think you are addicted, more that you just understand and appreciate...
so long as you still do "sh*t" in your life, and achieve your goals- no matter how big or small-you can still smoke occasionally! why not...
by the by, my name is rachel... was really a pleasure letting all that off my chest! spanx
ps i would like to speak to bcbuddy at some point if possible, we sound very similar!
Hi there , don't know whether it's by fate of just blind luck I found this board, but it's very interesting to see how everyone's copeing and hadling giving up smoking differently.
I've smoked weed daily for the last 8yrs, and I wouldn't know for what reason but yesterday I decided to quit/have a break (undecided on which one) but either way just driving along on my way home I threw my bong, weed, lighters....everything out the car window, and I really dont know why? I love weed, seriously I love the sh*t. I like the feeling of being high, I know it sounds sad but sometimes I forget what it feels not to be high? Every morning before work I'd have a smoke, when I got home, before eating, chilling out with mates (the obvious) just before bed, any reason I had , I'd have a smoke. BUT in saying that, not at one stage did I ever feel addicted or like I "needed" a billy? There would be some days I just didnt really feel like smoking, other days I'd just smoke all day. It was the same with ciggarettes, after smoking a pack a day of those sh*t sticks for 7yrs I gave them up at while snowboarding out at Perisher last year. Don't know why, I just did and never turned back.
I have no problem quitting weed, can't say that I'm really having any withdrawal symptoms or cravings....I just don't have an addictive personality really, but I'm just more confused as to why I've stopped all together, with no real prompting from myself, friends or family? I havent had to pay for the stuff in years, had no real social or health problems arise from it, I lead an otherwise healthy lifestyle and at the moment not feeling depressed, angry, upset, just yeah maybe in need of ideas as to where this sudden change may have come from, I may or may not start up smoking again, but an answer to this may be the deciding factor.
Thanks for reading. 8)
I've smoked weed daily for the last 8yrs, and I wouldn't know for what reason but yesterday I decided to quit/have a break (undecided on which one) but either way just driving along on my way home I threw my bong, weed, lighters....everything out the car window, and I really dont know why? I love weed, seriously I love the sh*t. I like the feeling of being high, I know it sounds sad but sometimes I forget what it feels not to be high? Every morning before work I'd have a smoke, when I got home, before eating, chilling out with mates (the obvious) just before bed, any reason I had , I'd have a smoke. BUT in saying that, not at one stage did I ever feel addicted or like I "needed" a billy? There would be some days I just didnt really feel like smoking, other days I'd just smoke all day. It was the same with ciggarettes, after smoking a pack a day of those sh*t sticks for 7yrs I gave them up at while snowboarding out at Perisher last year. Don't know why, I just did and never turned back.
I have no problem quitting weed, can't say that I'm really having any withdrawal symptoms or cravings....I just don't have an addictive personality really, but I'm just more confused as to why I've stopped all together, with no real prompting from myself, friends or family? I havent had to pay for the stuff in years, had no real social or health problems arise from it, I lead an otherwise healthy lifestyle and at the moment not feeling depressed, angry, upset, just yeah maybe in need of ideas as to where this sudden change may have come from, I may or may not start up smoking again, but an answer to this may be the deciding factor.
Thanks for reading. 8)
I am 26 and Ive been smoking about 1/4 ounce a week for about 11 years. I relate to alot of these posts. A few actually said what I am going through. Today is my first day clean on my own will. It has been very hard. My stomach is upset, I have no appetite, Im not tired and its past midnight. Times before when I didnt have any weed I would be grouchy, fidgety, and at times plain nasty tempered. Since I have been smoking since I was a young teenager I really dont know whats its like to lead a normal, straight life. I have devoted so much to weed! I have at times considered it my only real talent, sick as it sounds. I even have a big leaf tattoed on my belly which I have affectionately called my "pot belly". What a mistake... In grade school I was also very intelligent, I still am when I try. But I dont have much to show for my 26 years, dont own a home, dont have a job currently, gained over 20 lbs due to "the munchies" and being a couch potato. Blah blah blah. I now realize all of the wonderful opportunities Ive scwandered through the years, I was offered a full scolarship that I declined, plus I have never stuck with anything for long. My relationship with my parents has suffered. I havent ever been able to really be friends with anyone who doesnt smoke constantly. I dont know why I keep on. I have that same love/hate relationship some here have described. The high doesnt even feel the same to me anymore. It does keep me more level headed, more mellow, and I dont think so much about the problems in my life. I supose Ive "self-medicated" I dont know, but I do know I dont want it anymore, I want a social, productive life. I dont want to have to hide it anymore. I want to be able to get a good job and pass drug tests and such. I want my life back! I never in a million years thought this is how my life would turn out or that this would be SO hard. Reading these posts has made me realize I am not alone and has helped me so much, thankyou everyone!
I know that I cant blame all my problems on weed and to the people who smoke daily and maintain normalcy, more power to you, I dont judge. Just keep in mind not everyone is the same and it affects everyone differently.
I know that I cant blame all my problems on weed and to the people who smoke daily and maintain normalcy, more power to you, I dont judge. Just keep in mind not everyone is the same and it affects everyone differently.
First of all, I just want to make the point that I a not about to judge anyone. I was a weed-head for most of my adolescent years—from about 15 to 28 years old, with the last 6 to 7 years being the most frequent.
I used to think that life without trees was no life at all. What would I do with my evenings or weekends without it, I thought? It was the pivot point of my existence—it was a salve when I was hurt—a friend when I was lonely. And that's the point I'm making. For some people, this drug takes on a different form—it personifies into something more than what it actually is.
Like I said, I don't hate on anyone for how they choose to live. But I can testify that, on this day, my 83rd day free from weed, I am the happiest that I've been in my life. And I will NEVER go back to that drug again.
I'm one of those people with addictive personalities. I am better able to operate with a clean and sober mind, than with a smoked-out high one. I'm more able to indulge in life wholeheartedly now. I can experience the full gamut of human emotions, rather than dulling them out with reefer smoke. I can relate to other people better now that I'm clean. For me, it is a better life. And for me it does have to be a black or white thing—either I do it, or I don't. I can't just flirt with it, do it occasionally, or only at parties, or oly with friends. It sucks the life out of me—the real life. The stuff that makes life worth living.
And no, I don't agree with the post that this laziness is already in you. Weed may excentuate your creative mind, but it also brings the ugliest parts out of your character.
I encourage EVERYONE ON THIS SITE to be free of weed. Stick to your guns. Outlast the withdrawal symptoms. They will sibside. And I'm telling you, honestly, you'll be SO HAPPY you did. You'll wonder why you didn't get clean sooner. You'll feel like a complete human being. God bless all of you on this site. Stay strong!
I used to think that life without trees was no life at all. What would I do with my evenings or weekends without it, I thought? It was the pivot point of my existence—it was a salve when I was hurt—a friend when I was lonely. And that's the point I'm making. For some people, this drug takes on a different form—it personifies into something more than what it actually is.
Like I said, I don't hate on anyone for how they choose to live. But I can testify that, on this day, my 83rd day free from weed, I am the happiest that I've been in my life. And I will NEVER go back to that drug again.
I'm one of those people with addictive personalities. I am better able to operate with a clean and sober mind, than with a smoked-out high one. I'm more able to indulge in life wholeheartedly now. I can experience the full gamut of human emotions, rather than dulling them out with reefer smoke. I can relate to other people better now that I'm clean. For me, it is a better life. And for me it does have to be a black or white thing—either I do it, or I don't. I can't just flirt with it, do it occasionally, or only at parties, or oly with friends. It sucks the life out of me—the real life. The stuff that makes life worth living.
And no, I don't agree with the post that this laziness is already in you. Weed may excentuate your creative mind, but it also brings the ugliest parts out of your character.
I encourage EVERYONE ON THIS SITE to be free of weed. Stick to your guns. Outlast the withdrawal symptoms. They will sibside. And I'm telling you, honestly, you'll be SO HAPPY you did. You'll wonder why you didn't get clean sooner. You'll feel like a complete human being. God bless all of you on this site. Stay strong!
Hello blaqslip! If u don't mind telling, how long u have been clean? I have been clean for over 4 month and I did become a better person, but i have up and down days, just wanted advice. Did u have anxiety when u quit?
Just wanted to say this is my first week sober since i was 14 years old,
21 years old now, have to say this is pretty hard.
Been smoking 1/2 ounce weekly...makes it all that harder.
Have to agree with some earlier post about how we are all different and the affects it causes. Have the sweats,nervousness,loss of appetite,hope it goes away soon..By the way thanks for the info ,good luck to you all.
God Bless
21 years old now, have to say this is pretty hard.
Been smoking 1/2 ounce weekly...makes it all that harder.
Have to agree with some earlier post about how we are all different and the affects it causes. Have the sweats,nervousness,loss of appetite,hope it goes away soon..By the way thanks for the info ,good luck to you all.
God Bless
Anxiety?! Heck yes! It was SO hard to do this. Actually, this is my 13th week now. I've had night sweats, nightmares, dreams about smoking and scoring, irritability like crazy, mood swings, appetite issues—the whole gamut. I remember one night, I sat down on my couch and just sobbed for an hour because I hurt so bad. I was so lonely for weed—it's as if a friend had been ripped from me. I couldn't believe how attached I was. That night, I was SO on the verge of calling up my "Guy" and taking that drive to score. But I didn't. And the next day, I was so happy I didn't budge.
I don't know if you're religious or not, but one of the things that's helped me is prayer. I just get down on my knees and ask God to take away the desire to smoke. And that was the hardest part—the desire. I ALWAYS wanted it. I was fighting that craving all the time. With time, that dissipates, though. It gets easier as you rebuild your life without the drug. You find yourself thinking about it less and less. I admit, I do have times when it crosses my mind still. But going there is not an option. And I don't ache for it the way I used to, which is a real milestone for me.
The other thing that helped me is thinking about this addiction as a means of control—that this controlled substance, this little bag of grass could literally take me out of character and make me into someone else. Someone I didn't want to be. Someone who wasn't present, who was just, half-doped and desensitized. When I thought about it like that, my mind began to change because I don't want to be controlled. I want to be in charge of me.
I don't know if this helps at all. I hope so. Life will be so much richer without the green. I just wish I'd quit sooner. Stay strong everybody.
I don't know if you're religious or not, but one of the things that's helped me is prayer. I just get down on my knees and ask God to take away the desire to smoke. And that was the hardest part—the desire. I ALWAYS wanted it. I was fighting that craving all the time. With time, that dissipates, though. It gets easier as you rebuild your life without the drug. You find yourself thinking about it less and less. I admit, I do have times when it crosses my mind still. But going there is not an option. And I don't ache for it the way I used to, which is a real milestone for me.
The other thing that helped me is thinking about this addiction as a means of control—that this controlled substance, this little bag of grass could literally take me out of character and make me into someone else. Someone I didn't want to be. Someone who wasn't present, who was just, half-doped and desensitized. When I thought about it like that, my mind began to change because I don't want to be controlled. I want to be in charge of me.
I don't know if this helps at all. I hope so. Life will be so much richer without the green. I just wish I'd quit sooner. Stay strong everybody.
Rather than give my specific background, I'll just say "I'm in the same boat." Long term and lots of it.
My reason for posting is just to say that as a person trying to get control over this, reading these posts has made this night, without weed, much easier for me. Much more than I would have ever expected.
It has truly helped me and I will certainly fall back on an outlet like this the next time not smoking is feeling really difficult for me (which will undoubtedly be sometime tomorrow).
Thanks to everyone who has shared their experiences, views, and opinions. I needed it, will surely need it again, and I really appreciate it.
My reason for posting is just to say that as a person trying to get control over this, reading these posts has made this night, without weed, much easier for me. Much more than I would have ever expected.
It has truly helped me and I will certainly fall back on an outlet like this the next time not smoking is feeling really difficult for me (which will undoubtedly be sometime tomorrow).
Thanks to everyone who has shared their experiences, views, and opinions. I needed it, will surely need it again, and I really appreciate it.
Hey guys,
don't know if this will be useful or not for you all, but i just quit smoking 1/2 ounce a week for about 10 years, for me today it has been 4 days, i must say honestly after reading all the blogs, i really don't feel that bad...if anything i already see the change in myself as does my wife. Sure, i am having very weird cravings for things i never would have wanted before (big-macs) from mc donalds, but it is working for me. I have come to realize that if you really want to quit something you will, with no major personal drawbacks, if you are forced to quit something against your will, that is when it hurts. So I think that is what everybody should always consider and don't judge, don't rate and do not ever give up or be down on yourselves, because every step forward is always better than a step back. Quitting, I think, for myself was best thing I could have done for me and my family cause I also have come to realize that pot is alot stronger of a drug than I ever thought possible, it is true, life is so much better withought it...just remember, IT (pot) will always make you think otherwise.
Take care
Wish you all the best of luck.
don't know if this will be useful or not for you all, but i just quit smoking 1/2 ounce a week for about 10 years, for me today it has been 4 days, i must say honestly after reading all the blogs, i really don't feel that bad...if anything i already see the change in myself as does my wife. Sure, i am having very weird cravings for things i never would have wanted before (big-macs) from mc donalds, but it is working for me. I have come to realize that if you really want to quit something you will, with no major personal drawbacks, if you are forced to quit something against your will, that is when it hurts. So I think that is what everybody should always consider and don't judge, don't rate and do not ever give up or be down on yourselves, because every step forward is always better than a step back. Quitting, I think, for myself was best thing I could have done for me and my family cause I also have come to realize that pot is alot stronger of a drug than I ever thought possible, it is true, life is so much better withought it...just remember, IT (pot) will always make you think otherwise.
Take care
Wish you all the best of luck.
hey everyone, ive been trying to quit weed for awhile now but it just seems like i cant... i smoke because it takes me away from my problems in life. it seems like there is nothing else to do but to smoke that sh*t. ive wasted alot of time just sitting being high. it all started with influence in high school from others smoking, i tried it but the funny thing is that i didnt like it, but about a year later i started smoking. it has made me soo lazy that when it comes to taking the garbage i dont want to do it. it has made me depressed to the point that sometimes i really hate myself. when i wake up in the mornings im so lazy n tierd and i tell myself that i gotta quit, thats what i tell my self and i set dates to quit but when it comes to that day i just want to die specially the night. i become a total diffrent person at nights if i dont smoke. it feels as if the world was going to end if i dont, sometimes if i dont have i smoke the crystals at the bottom of my grinder. i quit smoking once for about 2 months and that when i went for a trip back home. it wasnt that hard because i was around my family and cousins but when i came back to my "real" life i started again because my friends would do it and i would jus stand there until i smoked again and told my self its the last time, and i would say the same thing everynight from that night untill i became addicted again. i ruined my life so badly because of the stupid dicisions i made. i could of become a pro soccer player because i was really good. i was a star n e where i went, no matter where it was. it really bothers me to see so many people out there with the same problems as me.
this morning when i woke up i told my self i gotta find something to help me quit, like a clinic or prescription drugs to help me get of this sht... cause i cant take it n e more.. i gotta go after my dreams cause its still not too late... maybe i cant make it to real madrid or barcelona.. but i sure can make it to custy MLS teams.... cause thats what i love doing.. so if n e one knows of n e clinic or drugs to help me of this thing plz help me out... the funny thing is that my gf and her friends r comming over to SMOKE.....!!
i hope everyone here can find something inside themselves to stop with this.. cause this is what the government wants.. people to get lazy and watch their young lives pass by so they have people to go clean toilets for them or flip burgers at macdonalds.... so if ur reading this and think that smoking is "cool" or something thing bout it twice before taking another step!!!!
this morning when i woke up i told my self i gotta find something to help me quit, like a clinic or prescription drugs to help me get of this sht... cause i cant take it n e more.. i gotta go after my dreams cause its still not too late... maybe i cant make it to real madrid or barcelona.. but i sure can make it to custy MLS teams.... cause thats what i love doing.. so if n e one knows of n e clinic or drugs to help me of this thing plz help me out... the funny thing is that my gf and her friends r comming over to SMOKE.....!!
i hope everyone here can find something inside themselves to stop with this.. cause this is what the government wants.. people to get lazy and watch their young lives pass by so they have people to go clean toilets for them or flip burgers at macdonalds.... so if ur reading this and think that smoking is "cool" or something thing bout it twice before taking another step!!!!
Congrats on quitting! I remember how I felt at day 4, and I must say that it seems like you're doing better than I was—LOL! I was on the verge of tears back then. I think you're right with what you said: If it is YOUR personal choice to kick, then you will have an easier time sticking to that decision and getting past all the temptations, hurdles, and pain that may come afterward. But here's the problem for me:
I did get past what I thought was the hardest part of quitting smoking. This Friday makes 4 months clean—completely and utterly free of weed. I'm past the weird food cravings, the appetite and digestive issues, the sleeplessness, and the initial depression and mourning for the loss of my "green friend." The night sweats are gone. The desire for the weed is even gone. Now what I'm left with is this whole new existence that feels nothing like the life I had before. I'm in this state of melancholy now, it seems, because I isolated myself every night and every weekend for 7 years with this drug, and now I feel extremely alone. I didn't realize how much of a solitary life it was to be a weed smoker---how I cut myself off from everyone, how I didn't allow myself to feel anything, or process my own emotions.
About 2 months ago, I was on a totally "high" from quitting. Life felt great---ethereal, and it is. Life IS better without the drug. But now that the drug is gone, I sort of have to put my life back together without it. I have to figure out how I'm going to spend my nights and weekends. And it isn't as easy as just calling up a friend to hang out or catch a movie. I spent so much time, so many years alone with this drug. Now I'm just alone without the drug, and it's hard to get back out in the social scene. I couldn't keep a love relationship when I smoked, so there were no men in my life. The friends I did have also smoked, and I've cut them off. Now there's no one left. It's just me, and I feel really sad about that.
Does anyone have any advice? I've tried making new friends, but I just can't bring myself to call them up over the weekend and see what they're doing on a Friday or Saturday night. I'd rather just be by myself, even though that's exactly what's driving me crazy. It's a learned behavior I have to break. I think I might try and take a dance or martial arts class, or something, so I can get used to being part of a group again and get in the groove of being around people. Any thoughts/ideas? I'd appreciate anything you can give me.
Thanks for reading, and stay strong and clean! :-)
I did get past what I thought was the hardest part of quitting smoking. This Friday makes 4 months clean—completely and utterly free of weed. I'm past the weird food cravings, the appetite and digestive issues, the sleeplessness, and the initial depression and mourning for the loss of my "green friend." The night sweats are gone. The desire for the weed is even gone. Now what I'm left with is this whole new existence that feels nothing like the life I had before. I'm in this state of melancholy now, it seems, because I isolated myself every night and every weekend for 7 years with this drug, and now I feel extremely alone. I didn't realize how much of a solitary life it was to be a weed smoker---how I cut myself off from everyone, how I didn't allow myself to feel anything, or process my own emotions.
About 2 months ago, I was on a totally "high" from quitting. Life felt great---ethereal, and it is. Life IS better without the drug. But now that the drug is gone, I sort of have to put my life back together without it. I have to figure out how I'm going to spend my nights and weekends. And it isn't as easy as just calling up a friend to hang out or catch a movie. I spent so much time, so many years alone with this drug. Now I'm just alone without the drug, and it's hard to get back out in the social scene. I couldn't keep a love relationship when I smoked, so there were no men in my life. The friends I did have also smoked, and I've cut them off. Now there's no one left. It's just me, and I feel really sad about that.
Does anyone have any advice? I've tried making new friends, but I just can't bring myself to call them up over the weekend and see what they're doing on a Friday or Saturday night. I'd rather just be by myself, even though that's exactly what's driving me crazy. It's a learned behavior I have to break. I think I might try and take a dance or martial arts class, or something, so I can get used to being part of a group again and get in the groove of being around people. Any thoughts/ideas? I'd appreciate anything you can give me.
Thanks for reading, and stay strong and clean! :-)
I feel very similar, when i was a smoker i was more social, well i mean i had my stoner friends, now that i do not smoke for over 5 month i started stayng home a lot more and there are times where i have to make myself call a friend to even go out for dinner, and once i am there i feel like going home, i guess its just a new life started. Now i am taking a belly dance class ( 4 fun), and also go to a spiritual class, that makes me busy, i also bought a treadmill and i work out on it once a day, besides may be later i was thinking of going to college to take any fun class just to be in the social sceen, because i found myself lately on the couch a lot, just watching comedys. I want to get back into the social sceen that i can enjoy, besides it occupies my brain from thinking to much negative things. Good luck!
Hey simma, i noticed you have put alot of post up lately surrounding your experiences, i too have been quit now for over two months, i know i will never go bak to smoking cannabis, i probably do miss it... but only to the extent of relaxing and socializing. i am really just putting up more threads in the hope that some1 will get benifit and help going through as what was extremily difficult period for me too. After quitting i got withdrawals 3 weeks after i basically just snapped into a wierd confused state, i can only recall one bad night sweat and then couldnt sleep then night following when i snapped into the spell. my syptoms didnt improve over 5 weeks really... they did but came back after couple days ect etc. It looks like it is very common that most people experience some withdrawal... so keep posted on how you are getting on.. hopefully in 3 months i will be 100% better too... time is a big healer they say... my friend was 3-4 months before he got himslef back to normal. He taken a course of anti-depressants called dosipin that helped him sleep... he didnt sleep for 5 weeks and was constantly throwing up and had diahreah and didnt eat at all becuase he would just throw up. and he had all the classic depressive syptoms etc. he too said it was the worse time of his life... when he told me and my firend who where still smoking we didnt belive him and just snubbed it... i wish from that day i would have paid attention to him more :-(
Did you take any anti depressants simma?
From my symptoms being really bad didnt take the anti depressants and took st john wort.. only thing was i was having a week of really bad depression then it would clear a little then come back to what i felt stronger to the point where i felt i just couldnt cope really. I have taken the anti depressants called citolapram.. i think they have really helped me over the last 2 weeks i have taken them. My friend also described about how he felt and then after taking them he felt 90% better most of the time.. until he was 100% great again.
i am not sure weather i am saying anti depressants are good for you becasue i am not sure at all. They have had no side effects with me only the first couple of time i took them i felt a very slight burning in my stomach and for the first 2 days i might have went slighly more depressed but i was already at the uncopable stage anyway! from then i have been good and not really stooped back to that really low depressive state i was in and sleep in much better now. keep posted in!
Good luck to all quitting and who are going through it!
Did you take any anti depressants simma?
From my symptoms being really bad didnt take the anti depressants and took st john wort.. only thing was i was having a week of really bad depression then it would clear a little then come back to what i felt stronger to the point where i felt i just couldnt cope really. I have taken the anti depressants called citolapram.. i think they have really helped me over the last 2 weeks i have taken them. My friend also described about how he felt and then after taking them he felt 90% better most of the time.. until he was 100% great again.
i am not sure weather i am saying anti depressants are good for you becasue i am not sure at all. They have had no side effects with me only the first couple of time i took them i felt a very slight burning in my stomach and for the first 2 days i might have went slighly more depressed but i was already at the uncopable stage anyway! from then i have been good and not really stooped back to that really low depressive state i was in and sleep in much better now. keep posted in!
Good luck to all quitting and who are going through it!