Abortion regret 'lasts for years'

You ARE on this site for a reason, you already love this baby PLEASE I hope you did

not have another abortion.

I believe that angels sprout one fresh feather for each wing for each story of atonement. You know that you've been forgiven here though Gods voice is a reminder of the true value of you heart.

The only person that can ease the pain is GOD! Hope that helped:)

Hi, My name is Rob, my Girlfriend and I have only recently gotten together, but she had an abortion in her last relationship. I know she struggles with that decision everyday, and feels so worthless. She tried killing herself last night, after we had been drinking, by throwing herself off our apartments balcony roof. I managed to get to her in time, but the decision is tearing her apart. What can I do to help/support her through this??? She is so amazing and special, and I feel like I'm the beast and she the beauty from that movie, 'Beauty and the beast'. I want kids with her and marriage...but I feel her slipping away. She doesn't think she is worthy of love, or that anyone should care for her. She doesn't think anyone should be there for her, as how can anyone be there for her, blood or otherwise, when she couldn't be there for her baby? I know she won't do counselling, and hardly talks about what is affecting her. Any advice or help you can give me will be greatly appreciated.

Think about this.The father who convinced you to have an abortion when you were 18 and in love with him and the child, finds you on social media 29 years later, for the first  time after you left him 5 months after the abortion, because only fighting and sadness and drinking took the baby's place. All of the trauma comes rushing back and does not go away, no matter how much he says he's sorry now. You will relive the entire horrific experience every night, all over again. Love just doesn't go away, including the love your baby feels for you. The placenta gives your baby life and sustenance, and all those chemicals and hormones you feel are from your baby flowing back to you, saying "I love you mom." To kill that gift from Mother Earth is unhealthy and unnatural. Abortion is just wrong and evil, but I wouldn't have known that if I hadn't had one. The clinics are money-making mills destroying women's souls and spirit. If men got pregnant, abortion wouldn't even exist. Abortion is mysogyny, a form of rape over the weak, the poor, and the young. I went on to be blessed with 5 children, thanks be to the forgiving universe, and I talked my sister out of one, thank God, but now all I can think about is that crushed skull broken apart and aspirated into a medical pan and then thrown into a garbage can to rot. That is exactly what happened. If we read about this in a history book we would say that the former society was deranged, and thank God for modern civilization, but we are that  sadistic death-worshipping society. Before Roe v. Wade thousands were aborted in America. This year, over a million in the US alone. We are in a place of reckoning if we don't pursue life and it's mysterious gifts. Keep your baby. Please, if only to save years of tears, slowly abated, then started up once again.

Hey yall, so I'm now 21, but when I was 19 I flipped over a pregnancy test to see two lines through it. I was pregnant and there was no doubt about it. I was absolutely in love with my boyfriend when I found out, but I was scared beyond belief. I didn't know how to tell him, or my family. I just felt as if I let everyone around me down. Now growing up I had always been against abortion. I figured if you think you're responsible enough to have sex, then you are responsible enough to deal with the consequences. Well later that night I told my boyfriend that I was indeed pregnant and his first words "is it weird I've already been thinking about names?" And I sort of just giggled. I didn't really know how to think or feel about everything yet. Then as things started to set in, one day he'd be kissing my belly and talk about baby names, the next day he would talk about how abortion is the right thing to do because we were young and we'd both have to give up our lives and change plans we had made for the future. It was all just very back and forth. But after doing that for weeks with him, it was more obvious that he didn't want the baby. Although we did come to a final girl and boy baby name. I felt as if since he was really trying to convince me to have an abortion he didn't want our baby, and that I would be doing this alone. So me being me, I read stories of regret after abortion and I couldn't imagine feeling that way. But he convinced me that it wouldn't happen to me, that I was stronger, that very few people feel that way after, and that our lives would be better because of it. I right there let him talk me into the biggest mistake of my life. I replay the time I was pregnant over and over again in my head, still. My boyfriend had work the day my appointment was scheduled, so I did it all alone. He tells me it's okay because we came to this agreement together, BUT; I signed all those papers, I told them it was the right choice, I took the pills, and I murdered the most innocent thing in this world. I stole life from the one thing that loved me unconditionally from the start and all I did was debate with its life. How horrible can someone get? I felt regret the instant I got home. I simply laid in bed and cried. For hours. I had two sets of pills with my abortion. The first one stops the growth and heart rate, the second one flushes your system causing labor like feelings. I quickly went to look up the percentage of people where the first set of pills didn't work. It wasn't very high. I prayed and prayed to wake up from this nightmare and to still have my baby. I literally waited until the very last minute to take the second set of pills. It was all around the worst feeling in the world. Well it worked, that night I went through a lot of pain but my huge secret was "taken care of" in the words of my boyfriend. But it wasn't, I hated myself. I didn't love myself, I wanted to die and I didn't believe I ever deserved anything good out of life again. I was serverly depressed for a long time. I broke up with my boyfriend that before all this, I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I ended things because I didn't love myself, and I couldn't let someone else love me if I didn't love me. I needed to get better, find myself again, learn to live with my choice, and realize that I will he okay. But that took a long time, I'm still suffering with an immense amount of regret, but I'm dealing with it. I've learned to live with it, even though I do have my occasional break down. Another thing, I hated myself for pushing away my boyfriend. Although I did let him convince me into abortion. I pushed away the one person who knew what I was going through, someone who saw me at my worst and still loved me. But by the time I found myself again, it was too late. He had moved on so I had to as well. I still cry, I still hurt, I still pray, I still talk up to heaven to my baby, but most of all I apologize more than anything.

Thankyou ... Sometimes u feel alone . It's so nice that people understand x

Hey fianally I founs someone who feels the same way I had an abortion back in may and I still feel like I shouldn't of done it

I love your post. I agree with your friend. But I can't forgive myself. I will try. I have 3 children of my own that I'm raising an intend to be of service ito children in any way God wants me too.

All i need is a baby help mii plsss im strandard

In reply to the thread Abortion Regret 'Lasts For Years. I'm 22 years old, my birthday was yesterday. I grew up in a strict Catholic home raised by a strong single mother and 2 siblings. My whole life I was taught about God and his unconditional love for everyone. I always knew abortion was wrong; that is was undoubtedly murder. I swore I would never get myself into a position that would require me to do that. I was wrong. I failed myself and my God.
I've had 2 abortions. One when I was 19. September 20, 2013. I was just about 7 weeks. My boyfriend and I were on a break and I hooked up with someone and he finished inside. I knew I was pregnant. I begged and begged that I would get my period soon. But It never came. I got a pregnancy test at ______ and right away it came up positive. They are a Christian organization and they consoled me as I cried telling me everything would be okay, God had a plan for me. They gave me an ultrasound and that's when it really hit me. I was actually pregnant.
I panicked. I went to PPH and got the pill for the abortion. I couldn't stop crying because I knew it was wrong but I knew I had to do it I was a kid having a kid. I had no license no car, I lived with my mom. The night before I cried and cut myself begged God to kill me so I wouldn't have to go through with it. I promised I would never do it ever again.
February 17, 2015 I had my first child my baby boy whom I love more than anything with the boyfriend from when I was 19. I had a very difficult delivery and after his birth the boyfriend and I broke apart.
Today is august 9, 2015. I found out on the 3rd that my period was 3 days late so I got a test and it came back positive. The boy who I've been on and off with since I was 19 was the father who right away said to get an abortion. I knew I had to, how could I be a single mom to 2 babies? I scheduled the appointment for the 5th to take the first pill. I didn't cry this time. I was numb. I couldn't believe I was back at the exact same PPH having another abortion.
It didn't hit me until this moment, August 9, 2015. I'm a wreck, unconsoulable. I just want to die. I cannot live with myself. I not only had murdered one of my babies, I murdered 2. I broke my promise to God. I'm a disgrace, I deserve to rot in hell. Everytime I look at my son, I remember I killed his siblings. I cannot go on like this.
If anyone is reading this and is thinking they have no option that abortion is the easy way out, you are wrong. The guilt is maddening. You will never forgive yourself. Do not have an abortion. Adoption is the better option. It doesn't seem like it because how could you carry your child for 9 months then abandon it? Abortion is murder. You wpuld be killing your baby. From the second of conception, it's a life created. It's near impossible to live with yourself afterwards. I can't.

Your right all of you people are murders and are true baby killers should be punished like any other murderers

I had an abortion 25 years ago. I am sure that people reading this would be wondering why after so many years I am writing about this. I feel as bad about this decision today as I did the day I made it. I made the choice on my own and because the wonderful man I was so very in love with was having a really difficult time in his life I didn't even tell him. I had no intention of telling him but a couple weeks after I ended up breaking down over it and telling him the horrible thing I had done. I don't judge anyone else for making this kind of choice but I know for me it was wrong on so many levels. I didn't let him know or give him a chance and it was just not what I wanted to do. I wasn't thinking....I had never been in love like that and it was something I wished every day of my life I could take back. I avoided this man after and have been trying to deal with this alone for 25 years - making up for it by doing things I don't want to do for others.
I want that little one back. I want a chance to take care of her and let her know how much I wanted her. I know people that have not walked in these shoes could now know this kind of pain - if I could do something to turn the clock back I would go right back to that day and thank God for His blessing. Some people pray to win the lottery or to find fortune in some way.....I'd give everything I have and could steal to bring me back to that day.

I also forgot to mention that the actual procedure was the most horrible thing I could ever have imagined. I have nightmares over it....25 years later the feeling, the pain, the sobbing, the fear is just as real as the day I did this. Time did nothing to make it better...it just made me know myself more and know how wrong this was for me. I have managed to hide this for so long. Only one person knows how I feel about this and it is the father of that tiny little soul.

Bravo! You just said everything that needed to be said to that sad human being. Please, let us pray for her and people who think like her to find Jesus and stop spreading devil's teaching.