I dont know what to say. I have read most of these messages and feel terrible for everyone of us women who have endometriosis. I am also relived to find out that I am not alone. I can relate to most of these messages however, my story has a few twists and turns. I had a laperoscopy when I was young and come to find out lots of cysts. Later on after life had kicked me around, I re married and six months afterwards was diagnosed with Kidney Cancer. It wasn't a small tumor that I had in my left kidney it was tumors with Cycsts embedded aroudn and inside the kidney. It was completely removed and I did not need medication nor kimo for it. It was found by accident due to the fact that I was really supposed to get checked for problems in my abodmen lots of pain everytime I ate or had intercourse. It was caught on time but after that every type of problem began to appare in my body. I still was not feeling good so I went to a Gastro where I then had a colgneoscopy done. There the found out I had IBS so I was put on Zoloff which helped temperarly yet, still I didn't not understand why I was getting so bloated and so sick everytime I would get my period. I then went to my GYNO and due to my history it was determind that we do a laperoscopy again. After that surgery I was told I had Endmeteriosis but not in the uterus nor the ovaries around my cologne, bladder and maybe some next to my only kidney. If someone could only understand what I would go through every month during my periods. My IBS would flair because of my endometriosis put pressure on my bladder and my only kidney. Not only was I suffering from pain but depression kicked in beyond belief. NOTHING was working for me..I had tried everything but also didnt want to try somethings because my body regects anything that is not normal to it. Then I started getting major Pelvic pains, I mean I felt like I was older than what my age really is 34. My GYNO could do anymore for me and honestly felt helpless and then asked me if I was ever going to get pregnant? I really didnt want to get pregnant because I had suffered a great deal from my last marrage with depression and being sick but knew that my present husband really wanted at least one child. My GYNO said, "that during pregnancy endometeriosis becomes doormant and after wards it may or may not come back. I was like WOW, that sounds great but I really had to think everything through for a while...long while especially since my health has been really kicked around. Finally, I mentally prepared to go ahead and have a baby. I was able to do so since my endo is outside of my uterus so for me to get pregnant wasnt so complicated. Well, I just want to say for those of you who are pregnant with Endo or are planning to get pregnant just note that my pregnancy has been MISREABLE!!!!! I wish I could kick myself for going down this route. Eventhough everything is great with the baby, I tell you that I have had everything under the sun but the worsed part is the PELVIC/PUBIC bone pain. I can hardly walk and sleeping is a nightmare. My Pelvic/Pubic bone feels like it is being hammered and stretching every minute. The pain is similar to the pelvic pain I was getting before getting pregnant just 100 times worse. Eventhough they say this is normal...I dont believe it. I know for a fact that this is my Endometeriosis KILLING ME and adding more to the symptoms of being pregnant. Honestly, I pray that after the baby comes out that maybe my endo will subside, but who knows??? In addition to the pelvic pain I have terrible back pain because during my Kidney surgery, I was given an epidural with Morphen running through the same spot. I had suffered a great deal from the back pains after my surgery more so than the surgery itself...and now while being pregnant I cant begin to tell you the amount of pain. I just want to say that if you are considering having a baby because your GYNO said it is for the best please remember that may not be completely true. I dont know what level of endo I have and a hysterectomy wont work for me because the endo is out of my uterus and ovaries. The only thing that somewhat helps is to excersize and eat right but other than that hoplessness. I dont know if my situation may help anyone feel that they are not alone especially if they have all these synptoms as I do, but something is better than nothing. I do pray that doctors can find a better alternative for us so that we can move on with our lives.