Hi everyone. I am a 32 year old mom on day 8 of detox from what started as an oxy addiction that progressed into heroin. This isn't my first rodeo as I was abusing pills for 10 years before I started heroin. Ive tried detoxing soooo many times and never made it for even 2 weeks. I hope I can stay strong this time...the mental part is the hardest once the physical c**p stops. Im still not feeling "normal"....hell I don't even know what normal should feel like lol. I need to learn how to live my life without pills and heroin..I used them for anything and everything. Im screwed now for when i really do need pain killers. How is everyone else doing?
Hello EVERYBODY!! Thanks to everyone for your helpful words of advice. I am trying to help my boyfriend detox and this has been helpful. I am a big nature nut and am in recovery myself but never had to deal with opiates! Im not sure if hes really serious about wanting to stop or he just sees maybe what it does to our pocketbook!! He tells me hes a figher and hes gonna fight. Hopefully your tips and my encouragement will help him this time. Everyone else out there stay strong, dont isolate yourself, and fight your mind!! The mind is powerful thing and even more powerful thing not to waste!!
Hi Trace, So far so good. a little over 1 month clean for me now.
You hang in there! I know I sound like a broken record, but look into Kratom, it really helps with WD.
I know what you mean on not being able to take anything, I have a tooth ache right now (root canal), but cannot take anything! As far as normal goes, yeah, it is supposed to come back after time, but it can be quite a long time!
You hang in there! I know I sound like a broken record, but look into Kratom, it really helps with WD.
I know what you mean on not being able to take anything, I have a tooth ache right now (root canal), but cannot take anything! As far as normal goes, yeah, it is supposed to come back after time, but it can be quite a long time!
congrats on a month!! Im trying to get out of my house today so i will look for kratom....we live in a really small town and no store had l-tyrosine lol I bet it'll be really hard to find here. I'm sick of my mood swings, one minute im happy and feeling ok and the next, I'm super b***h lol. but, other than still sweating a little at night, Im pretty sure the physical withdrawal is done thank god...now to not be back in this place again.
Little words of encouragement, today!!!!! Keep in mind "you can do it"!!!!No matter how old you are (I proved that)! Your brain is flexible......Remember that it took your brain time to adjust to the opiates, it also adjusts to the lack of opiates, by working like your brain is supposed to; without artificial means! It’s been more THEN two months for me and while I feel it slowly. I can also remember when I started and could barely walk down the street. I still am dealing with depression and don't feel like talking to anyone (sorry):-) ! But, I love you all and continue to wish all my friends out there; the best! DON'T TURN BACK (I)
My doctor prescribed me 8mg Dilaudid 6 to 8 times a day for almost a year and a half for joint pain caused by an autoimmune disease, then last month, abruptly decided he could no longer treat me. What angers me is that the day he suggested this medicine, (I had never really taken pain medicine before, and have never used street drugs) expressed my concerns about what would happen when the time came to stop them. He ASSURED me I wouldn't have to worry about it because he would make sure he tapered me off or whatever it is you have to do to stop taking the medicine.
It has been 7 days since I took my last medicine and they have been the worst days of my life. My husband got me a nice hotel room (we're staying with his family temporarily) so I would have privacy, my own bathroom, TV, and could control the room temperature. I tried to be as prepared as I could. I practically bought everything they sell at Walgreens. Hyland's Restful Legs, Tylenol, Ibuprofen, Aleve, caffeine-free drinks, chamomile tea, Imodium, Benadryl, and hunkered down for my battle. Needless to say, I did not go to work. The restless legs were the worst thing, along with the anxiety. I tried to go to work today, but had to leave after only 4 hours. I cannot sit there for that long; it was torture! I hit the exercise room at the hotel on the afternoon of the 5th day, which helped for about 12 hours-I thought I was out of the woods, so we left the hotel. Yeah right. The restless legs and restlessness and anxiety and agitation began again yesterday afternoon and persist today. HOW MUCH LONGER?!? I'm being mean to everyone I know, and I am never ever ever like that! I feel so guilty. I never took more medicine than I was supposed to, was always responsible with it. I thought I was doing the right thing, but NO!
It has been 7 days since I took my last medicine and they have been the worst days of my life. My husband got me a nice hotel room (we're staying with his family temporarily) so I would have privacy, my own bathroom, TV, and could control the room temperature. I tried to be as prepared as I could. I practically bought everything they sell at Walgreens. Hyland's Restful Legs, Tylenol, Ibuprofen, Aleve, caffeine-free drinks, chamomile tea, Imodium, Benadryl, and hunkered down for my battle. Needless to say, I did not go to work. The restless legs were the worst thing, along with the anxiety. I tried to go to work today, but had to leave after only 4 hours. I cannot sit there for that long; it was torture! I hit the exercise room at the hotel on the afternoon of the 5th day, which helped for about 12 hours-I thought I was out of the woods, so we left the hotel. Yeah right. The restless legs and restlessness and anxiety and agitation began again yesterday afternoon and persist today. HOW MUCH LONGER?!? I'm being mean to everyone I know, and I am never ever ever like that! I feel so guilty. I never took more medicine than I was supposed to, was always responsible with it. I thought I was doing the right thing, but NO!
Hi Jenny, how sad of a Doctor you had. I am sorry I can't keep calling these people Doctors anymore. Anyways. You are doing all the right things. There are a few things you have on your side. One and a half years! And it sounds like you have some support. I know it sounds redundent, but get out and walk or exersice; like you did at the hotel. The restful legs are a killer for most people. I aint no Doctor; but maybe I am better:)...It seems from you letter that the restless legs came back with a vengence after the exercise room, well the next day. Again, you are doing everything right. You have come way to far to go back, it doesn't sound like you have a choice (no meds). But in a way thats good. Hang on kid! If you want to talk; go for it. I still can't believe that your Dr. let you drop like that. But then again I totally believe it!!! How is you joint pain and try not to take or mix too many Tylenol, Ibuprofen, Aleve or asprin. Josh
Oh, hot water bottles and baths!!
i would get some amino acids like l-tyrosine and vitamin B and DL phenylalanine. They help with your brain getting back to normal from what Ive heard. Im on day 9 (i think) and trust me it does get better!! Do you have a way to get some pot cause that chilled me out and helped me sleep and eat. Even if you take your meds responsibly, your body still gets dependent on them, your own brain stops making its own dopamine.
Yep, has nothing to do with legal or illegal, opiates are opiates and you will eventually get physically dependent on them if you take them long enough.
Jenny, the restless legs/restlessness, and agitation can go for a couple of weeks, (or longer depending on the length of taking). The anxiety and even depression can last longer, was a good three weeks before I felt I was coming out of it, but I still have "bad" days, for some it can go longer, something you need to be aware of. Trace gave good advice, and the exercise everyone is saying really does help, especially with the restlessness. Last advice is find a different doctor! There are some good ones out there, but try to stay away from more drugs, either to help with WD or with the depression, these can do more harm that good and can be just as hard to stop. Good luck and hang in there!
Jenny, the restless legs/restlessness, and agitation can go for a couple of weeks, (or longer depending on the length of taking). The anxiety and even depression can last longer, was a good three weeks before I felt I was coming out of it, but I still have "bad" days, for some it can go longer, something you need to be aware of. Trace gave good advice, and the exercise everyone is saying really does help, especially with the restlessness. Last advice is find a different doctor! There are some good ones out there, but try to stay away from more drugs, either to help with WD or with the depression, these can do more harm that good and can be just as hard to stop. Good luck and hang in there!
Thanks for that info.I never heard of that
I did hit the Wal-Mart last night and bought another round of some more stuff: Hyland's Nerve Tonic, Epsom Salt, more tea, vitamin B6, Valerian Root, Gatorade, a 6-pack of beer (as a last resort maybe I'll have one) and LOTS of fruits and vegetables. My sister and one of my brothers are rumored to always have marijuana, but since I've never used it in my 31 years, I still don't think I can cross that line. Besides, working for a network of hospitals, it would be just my luck that there would be a random drug test or something. I left work after only a half day yesterday, and only slept for the 2 hours directly before I had to get up this morning. I still felt way too on-edge, so I called in. I think I only have 14 vacation hours left, so I hope I can go in tomorrow!
The hot baths really help a lot if they're hot enough to slightly scald my skin, but I'm so exhausted (does this make sense?) that I nearly feel too weak to get out of the tub and dressed afterward. I simply have no patience for it! I called my regular family doctor but, of course, she said she will do nothing to help me. I would bet any money that if she were in my shoes she would damn well make sure something was done for her! GROARR!!!
The hot baths really help a lot if they're hot enough to slightly scald my skin, but I'm so exhausted (does this make sense?) that I nearly feel too weak to get out of the tub and dressed afterward. I simply have no patience for it! I called my regular family doctor but, of course, she said she will do nothing to help me. I would bet any money that if she were in my shoes she would damn well make sure something was done for her! GROARR!!!
I know exactly what you mean about the too tired to get out and dressed when you shower. its hard but you just gotta push yourself. I can' t believe your dr wont give you anything to help cause there is stuff that will help like benzo's and clonodine for your stomach. maybe try going to an urgent care or calling a detox place and see if they will help you. i know when i went to the ER when I did one of my many attempts, they gave me stuff to help. Hang in there, once your brain starts making its own dopamine again you will start feeling better.
Yep, time to change doctors! Going thru WD is a serious medical condition, especially coming off of Dilaudid! They can at least ease the symptoms to help you get thru it! They should respect you for coming to them for help!
More advice is find something to keep your mind occupied, anything you can find. Music, books, movies, etc. It is great to have someone to help you, just let your husband know it can take several weeks for you to really start healing mentally, and both of you hang in there! I promise you it does end, it does get better, it is just a slow process! Stay strong!
More advice is find something to keep your mind occupied, anything you can find. Music, books, movies, etc. It is great to have someone to help you, just let your husband know it can take several weeks for you to really start healing mentally, and both of you hang in there! I promise you it does end, it does get better, it is just a slow process! Stay strong!
Josh, Baby, Trace, how are you guys doing?
I am proud of myself today, had a test of my will power. I had to go to the dentist (trying to get a root canal finished) and they automatically wanted to prescribe some hydrocodone, I declined it! But I have to say, it was hard, I was tempted, but I knew if I did, I would have to go thru hell again! I can tell you one thing Kratom does not work on, that is tooth aches! I know it sounds weird, but at least my tooth is keeping my mind off my disc problems! LOL. :~)
I am proud of myself today, had a test of my will power. I had to go to the dentist (trying to get a root canal finished) and they automatically wanted to prescribe some hydrocodone, I declined it! But I have to say, it was hard, I was tempted, but I knew if I did, I would have to go thru hell again! I can tell you one thing Kratom does not work on, that is tooth aches! I know it sounds weird, but at least my tooth is keeping my mind off my disc problems! LOL. :~)